Glitter in the air part 3 (just bite your lip.)

(if you haven't, or if u forgot wat it was about cuz its been so long, read my last post so u know wtf this post is about.) Randy. ------------------>

and below him is Meghan

                                                                     

the drive to addersons was sufficiently akward.
 it was quite most of the way. i kept my guard up and my hand in a fist just in case he tried anything.

"would you relax greaser? I'm not ganna touch you." he said looking straight ahead at the road. my hand was still tightly in a fist. there was a pause. "oh yea?  and since when do i trust a socs?! especially one that helped hurt my friends?!.. u disgust me." i yelled. i felt my ears getting hot and my throat starting to burn. i chocked down tears. "quite a temper you got on you Cade. tell me something, how is it that little Brooklyn is so sweet, and johnny is so sensitive. and your a hot headed bitch? i didn't touch ur friends. Bob only said to me that we were ganna go jump some greasers. ...i didn't know how far he'd take it.." he said " oh boo hoo. you cant fucking say no?! u couldn't tell him u didn't want to do it?! have ur own fucking mind socs.." i said as i crossed my arms in disgust. "you don't get it greaser..Bobs been my best friend since we were in diapers..i couldn't tell him no." he said looking straight, and maybe with a slight bit of pain and frustration written on his face. I just looked at him for a few seconds. then turned my head to face the window for the rest of the ride to the south side..

We were in the south side. and it looked like Mr Rodgers threw up all over the place.
 it was the perfect neighborhood. the perfect huge houses. the perfect people walking their perfect dogs. the perfect mustangs. it was so...plastic. He caught me looking through the car window in awe. "not like ur usual hood is it greaser?"  he said, but not in a snobby way. i ignored his comment and continued to look. "well. this is my house" he said uninterested. it was huge. it was a light tan color, it had  big doors with a huge window above them ,showing an enormous crystal chandelier. "is uhm..is anyone home?" i said feeling uncomfortable as i got out of the car. "uh yea. my Dad and Meghan." he said. i hated his sister. she was one of cherries friends. i sighed loudly. "okay. lets get this over with.." we walked in his house. it looked even bigger from the inside. it wasn't to colorful. marble white floor. white walls. "Randy. home so early?" i heard his dad yell from the other room. "uhh yea." i could tell he felt uncomfortable introducing me to his dad. i wasn't exactly wearing a sweater vest and matching knee length skirt. he came over to us and looked me up and down and smiled slightly. "hello. I'm Stan." he said as he shook my hand. i hesitated then shook his hand. randy was already on the steps motioning me to follow him upstairs. "yea, so this is my room." he said like it WASN'T the most beautiful room ever. it looked like a room for a prince. "ur kidding right?.. i feel like Cinderella." i said smiling and looking around the room. he smirked and laughed a bit. i saw a picture on his dresser and picked it up. "who's this?" i asked. "mom."  he said with not much emotion. "wow. total milf." i said joking around nodding my head. "he cracked a smile, but it quickly faded. "no but shes real pretty." i said still looking at the picture. "yea she was." he said also looking at it. "was?" i said. "yea she uhh..she died when i was 13." he said looking at the floor. and that was one of the first times I've ever seen pain in a socs eyes. emotional pain. "sorry.." i said quietly. he sighed. "things happen." he said walking away to avoid continuing the subject. "so lets get started on this project shall we?" he said getting out his stuff. we sat on his floor and did our work..

after about an hour i started getting bored and side tracked (well of course, its me xD.) he was asking me questions about my life as i tried to balance my pencil on my nose. "ugh. can we go do something else? we've been asking each other questions for like. 6 hours." i said in a whiny voice. "its only been an hour..but okay okay. I'm supposed to show you what its like to be me to i guess." He said and got up to put his stuff away. "wait were are you going?" i said "were going out." he said as if i had no say in the matter. "oh no no no no. no offense adderson. but ur friends aren't exactly my cup of tea." i said kind of laughing at the thought of actually spending a day with a bunch of socs. "well don't worry. Bob isn't attending this get together. I'll tell them to keep there hands to themselves." he said. "...and what makes you think i can trust you?" i said before he went to walk out his bedroom door. he turned around and looked at me. "can't  you just trust me for today? I don't want to fail this project. were not going to jump you or anything, now come on. get ur notebook u got to write down what we do.." He said leaving the room before i could protest. i sighed and grabbed my notebook.
We got to this kids house and there i saw cherry, Marsha, Meghan (addersons' sister) and a few other boys outside. i became nauseated at the sight. They whispered and giggled. I walked up to them with Randy. "hey. quit ur giggling. I'm required to be here. And don't worry. I'm just here to observe. Trust me. i don't want to be here just as much as u don't want me here. They rolled their eyes and carried on with their conversation. one of Randys friends james brought out a bottle of whine and Vodka. The girls were so..idk. Fake? theyve been treated like royalty their whole lives they didnt even get a chance to mold thier personalities from mistakes or sadness.they were fake and concieted. i swear, their heads were so big that they were ganna snap off thier necks. I wrote things down. but their wasnt much to say.
The boys played football in the yard. i sat on the steps sort of near the girls. but not close enough to catch thier cooties. The boys were kind of like us..they fooled around and laughed. they acted sort of like brothers.
The sun started to go down so we all went to the movies. I  DID NOT want to be seen in public with these people. i was freaking out on the inside. i kept thinking,
 inhale. exhale. inhale exhale.

We got out of the car and walked in the drive in. And then i saw meghan Whisper in cherries ear. then look at me. Knowing me. i wasnt going to let that slide. "Yo. got something to share Meghan?" I said with my bout to slap a hoe look on my face. She came in my face. we all stopped walking. i knew shit was bout to go down. i just kept thinking, sorry randy..
"Go home greaser. I dont want my brother near any greasy sluts." She said waving her manicured finger in my face. I started at her with a slight grin. "sweetie. You must not know my reputation to well. because you would have known that was a terrible idea." i said shaking my head. "No no. i know ur reputation very well Greaser. But i figured maybe u were smart enough not to touch me when your with a bunch of socs." she said smiling. i grabbed her by the hair and punched her in the face with my other hand. not my best punch. but it was enough to fuck up her nose job. Ill take it :P. "whoops. guess im not smart enough." i said shrugging my shoulders. at this point Randy was holding back his sister from trying to hit me back. the others were suprised i hit her in thier territory. But I was even more suprised..because i decided to trust Randy that one night. I knew he wouldnt let them all jump me. atleast not today. James held back meghan as Randy grabbed me by the wrist like a child, and pulled me to his car. He was pissed xD. I laughed to myself a little. "ow." i said. thinking thatd make him let go or loosen his tight grip on my wrist. but no. we got in the car as i rubbed my wrist. We didnt talk so much as he drove me back to our side of town. "what the hell were u thinking?" he said with anger. "OH COME ONNN. she was asking for it, you heard her!" i said defending myself. "You could have gotten yourself jumped. your lucky i got you out of there greaser. any other time i would have let them have you. but a promise is a promise..ur lucky." he said lowering his voice to a normal level. "told you. i told u i couldnt hang out with them." i said sort of loudly. "You couldnt try?! you couldnt just brush it off when she said that!?" he yelled at me. "oh so its my fault?!" i said responding loudly. there was a pause. i saw him smirk and he let out a a slight laugh. "listen to us. we sound like an old married couple." he said looking at the road. "yea well. any other time we would have been at eachothers throats by now.." i said smirking. "yea.." he said still smirking. "uhmm drop me off right here." i said looking out the window. i got out of the car and shut the door. "ur coming here tomorrow." i said to him through the open car window. "alright. later greaser." he said with a little grin. "later adderson." i said smiling a little. I walked to my house and shut the door.
I went to Bed...maybe feeling a little excited for tomorrow.

glitter in the air part 2 (a walk in my shoes)

I woke up to the beautiful sound of birds singing and sunshine illuminating my room...
nah im just playin Xp. i woke up to the beautiful sound of brooke blow drying her hair, singing some song, and johnny using a power drill  at the wonderful hour of 6 AM -.-. and god knows that boy aint trained in any type of carpentry. I got up to kill them both. "GUYS! ITS ONLY 6 IN THE MORNING!!" i screamed. "yes dawn, it is, so get ur ass up and get ready for school!" brook said smiling."watch it smart ass" i said giving her the death stare, and grumbled somthing under my breathe as i walked into my room.I got ready and went to go get that choclate bar curtis kid so we could walk to school. I walked into the curtis house seeing if kitty was ready. no one was in sight. "yo K.C.!" i said yelling. i looked around the house and everyone was M.I.A. i looked at my phone to check the time, and i saw a message from kit. "dearest D.C., i decided to be a bad friend and not wait for you because you take to frickin long to get ready, and i have a test that i dont plan on flunking. sorry <3"  I made a loud sigh and walked out the door. i guess it was just me. I got to class only 10 minutes late. (new record!), and sat down next to my friend, completley ignoring my assigned seat. "Dawn Cade. get in ur assigned seat, ur already 10 minutes late to class." the teacher said tryin to sound like a hot shot.oh how i hate teachers -.-. "whatever man." i said rolling my eyes and dragging myself to my seat. the class giggled. "okay today we are going to do a group project for the next two weeks about getting to know one another." the teach said. it was only the third day of school and we were already doing a project? what a hard ass. so to make a long, boring description of a project short, teach would give us a partner, and then we would hang out with them at thier house and see how they live for one week, and then the other partner the next week and write a report about it blah blah blah.teach opend her fat mouth again "okay so ive already picked the partners. Alyson with joey, sam with rachel, jason with Bob, cherry with lisa, Dawn with randy.." and thats when i died. i looked across the room and saw Sheldons little sidekick smiling back at me like a little bitch. "we start today so bring ur partner home." the teacher said making me even more mad. I told myself fuck it, and i was just going to skip out on the project. "oh and the project is worth 40 percent of ur marking period grade." she added. i was about to murder that bitch for putting me with randy. the bell rang and the day went on. we were told to come back to our first period at the end of the day to go meet up with our partners. I walked in the class to find randy, bob, cherry, marsha, lacey, paul, and james at the back of the class room looking as stuck up as ever. "okay class get with ur partners!" the teach yelled. so like the Ballsy kid that i am, i went up to randy and stared at him like a sassy bitch :p. "dont worry greaser, im just as pissed about this as you are." he said giving me a nasty look back. "whatever adderson, just dont piss me off and i wont have to mess up ur face." i said. "You know cade, being such a smart ass isnt going to get you anywere, it will simply have u jumped." he said with a smirk. "You know what u curly headed fuck?!" i said raising my fist to his face. the teach stepped in "Hey! pipe down! this is a class room! now u better both act like adults or i WILL fail u on this project, and Dawn once again, watch your language or im writing you up." i stared at randy and shook my head. i walked out of the class room and Adderson followed. "yeah. behave Cade. im so sick of u greasers and ur appaling behavior." he said with disgust. i ignored him. i figured i could beat the living shit out of him AFTER the project. I turned around and stopped him in his tracks. "LOOK. i want to beat the shit out of you, and I KNOW u want to beat the shit out of me to. but we have a project that could make us flunk the marking period if we keep picking on eachother. so suck it up and make this unpleasent situation tolerable." i said with a serious face. thier was a pause and randy just looked at me, probably considering what i said. "come on..let me show you what its like to be a socs."

glitter in the air pt 1

loosing hope feels like shit.
ive came to the conclusion that Bob Sheldon is the antichrist. if his goal is to knock us down, when were not to high up to begin with... like kicking a sick puppy. I give up. you win sheldon. tare me down all you want. i just dont care.
It hasn't been all rainbows and unicorns latley. moneys been kind of tight for us, bob's been rubbin me the wrong way, and i dont know. everything just kind of sucks. not trying to sound like a moody bitch or nothin..
i feel alone. i know your all thier, i know you care, and i know you would help me with anything. no offense you guys..but even when you are thier, i still feel alone. i dont know how to explain it. thier must be somthing wrong with me i guess :/. ahh well. ill deal. i guess..
it was around 10 30 pm ish. rainy,kind of cold,and crappy out. i had on my sweatshirt with the hood pulled over my head, with my old jeans and converse. I walked on the curb trying to balance. like we did when we were kids. wandering helped. just me and my mind. i ended up at the park. i sat on the wet swings. thinking about things i could change for myself, and the things i cant change. "look at you, all alone in the rain huh cade?" i looked up slightly. my favorite people standing in front of me -.-. nothing but a couple of socs to top off the fucking day. "whats wrong? run out of vodka?" he laughed. so did they. i just stared at him, still on the swings. i knew i wasnt going to do anything. i couldnt. i felt frozen and to crappy to help myself. and i knew you could see it on my face. but they dont care, they like our missery. I stood up. looking up at the one who did all the talking. he looked confused or troubled for a split second. like somthing was bothering him. maybe because he felt wat i was feeling for just that split second. "come on dalton! do somthin!" his friends said behind him. he smiled an evil one. and within a second he had me pressed against a tree, grabbing my throat. i had my eyes shut, pulling back tears. i didnt want to satisfy him and let him know i was terrified. i opend my eyes. and again, i saw that look on his face. his friends were standing a good 10 ft behind us, grining. he looked behind at them. still holding a tight grip on my throat. "do somthing. you got what you wanted socs. im not fighting back. i wont feel it. im already numb." i said wispering in a shaky voice. still holding back tears.
and he loosind his grip, and let go. he just kept staring at me with that look of confusion and curiosness. "come on man whatr ya doin?" they looked at him like he was crazy. but they were behind him so he didnt see. he whisperd in my ear..
 "mental pain can hurt alot more then physical. Personal, private, solitary pain is more terrifying than what anyone else can inflict. and you've got enough of it.. get better kid." he walked away. his four friends were shocked, even though they didnt hear what was sed.  i heard them asking him questions about why he did nothing. and he kept quite. and just got into the car with them. i slid down the tree and sat on the wet ground confused and shocked with my jaw practically on the floor. the blue mustang started up, and drove away. i watched it disapear into the darkness. i just sat and thought motionless. maybe not all of the socs are emotionless monsters...
I checked my phone and it was 11 30. i got up and dusted off my pants. and walked home. "hey sis" brook said sitting next to austin on our couch. "hey" i said with a small smile. "hey you okay?" austin asked.
"yeah...
 im fine."

the "hot mess" is after your ass sheldon :)

i woke up at the usual, 3 pm. i dragged myself out of bed, made johnny make me some pancakes, got dressed, and left the house.hanging out with friends wasnt on the agenda for today. as most of you know i tend to do stupid, scratch that. fucked up things when im mad. sheldon crossed the line a longggg time ago. but now he crossed MY line, and thats a pretty big mistake on his part. So? what do i do? i got dressed, and left to find sheldon on the socs side.  by myself. yea i know i know, stupid stupid STUPID idea. i agree it wasnt my most thought over plan, but its somthing i felt was a good idea at the time being. So i walked.. with only a switch in my back pocket, and an angry expression. I didnt plan on using my blade or nothin. unless i had to. i knew dam well i was asking to get jumped,and the closer i got to the socs' side of town, the more i wish i would of brought 1 or two people along. i finally made it over to the socs side, wishing i hadnt gone. but i wasnt about to turn around now. my pride got in the way, i couldnt let him do that to one of my friends and  my brother and get away with it.  i knew i could beat up bob..probably. but not him AND his friends. i got out my cell phone, tempted to call shy over. but i felt a cold hand on my shoulder. i jumped, and turned around. no other then a couple of ape faces with devilish grins. i stared at them. "nice sweaters. ur mommys knit them for you?" i said smiling. the front man shook his head with a smile on his face, like i said somthing i shouldnt of. "so we got a smart ass on our hands, dont we boys?" they laughed and the one spit on the ground next to him. i knew damn well i couldnt take them all, im not stupid. i rolled my eyes. "why dont you go fuck yourselves okay?" i said looking at them cooly. "well miss cade, your in our territory, arent you? that means your our territory."  They started walking towards me, sort of circling in. i took out my blade but the one hit it out of my hand. i gotta start holding a tighter grip on that thing  man :/. the front man grabbed my wrist and pulled me to his chest. "ya know your pretty for a greaser girl." he said with an evil smile. "let me go!" i said and punched him in the face. he let go of my wrist, but i saw someone punch another one of the guys in the face. it was andrew brumley..what was he doing on this side of town? i grabbed my knife and cut the other socs that grabbed me across the throat. then they all ran. and me and andrew were left alone in the middle of the street. "hey you okay?" andrew said out of breathe. "yea...yea im fine." i said looking around. i looked at my wrist. it had a red ring around it. "pshht well dont i feel like a woose" i said laughing. "you didnt need to help me. i could have handled it" i said, knowing i was lieng to myself. "yea yea sure" he said sarcasticly. I put my knife in my back pocket and we started walking back to our side. "so why were you over on this side of town?" he said  looking confused. "im here because bobs an ass, and i was trying to find him..but they found me first." i said smirking. "better question. why are you here?" i said looking up at him. "i had some buissness to take care of with a socs." he said looking straight in front of him. the walk back was just about everything. we talked about family and friends, socs, all our problems we both have alot of.  i got to my house around 6 o clock. johnny was laying in pain on the couch. just seeing that almost made me go back out to look for bob again. but i didnt. i just waked silently to my room. This aint over bob. i will find you.

the low down

we had a party it was fun yadayadayada. more important shits been going down.

number one. i gots me a new brother..yippy. its not like i have anything against the kid. he didnt do anything to me. i just dont like change. and now that we have a new brother living with us? its a little much. but hey. il adapt. hes a good kid and all, and he keeps to himself. he doesnt do anything for me to hate him. so its fine..i guess..welcome to the family little guy :/.

next on my list, is mr. super socs sheldon. Its not like he used to get in my way or do anything to make me insanley pissed or want him dead. until he crossed the fucking line and did that to jelly. thats NOT cool -_-. just lettin ya know man. your numero uno on my hitlist. not a good place to be. and watch yourself hun :). im like fuckin jackie chan :p. il get you when you least expect it. and it wont be just me lookin for you. these socs seem like thier gettin pretty active :3. idk bro thiers something about summer that just triggers some wierd thing in thier deranged brains that make them want to hurt us even more. idk man. i aint scarred of sheldon corey or who ever the fuck comes at me, everyone be careful though :/.



me and caleb..yea were done. and thiers no particular reason we split. its because i figured out something about myself. i dont like relationships, well not right now. i have to much on my plate. relationships, they make me uncomfortable and i felt like i had to watch wat i did because i was with someone.i aint sad. hes now just one of my best friends (:. bye bye boyfriend, hello best bud.

on a lighter note, KITKAT CURTIS IS BACK IN TOWN :D. now its time to really start the summer and party with my best friend. i missed you oh so much kit (:. and i am SO happy for you and tibs man! your ganna make a beautiful bride and wife.

another thing, tiff and andrew got married (:! so happy for you to. your wedding was off the heezee lmao xD.

all for now, dawn cade.

Say, why dont we have a party :3?

okay so i vote we should throw a crazy sweet ass party to kick off the summer and invite like the hole world to come, the shepards, are gang, brumleys, and like all the greasers in town. (even though summer already started but watever) idk whos house or were at yet. but if any one has any decent suggestions please inform me of them down thier, in my comments :).

all for now,
dawn

Greasers vs greasers?

I dont know what was wrong with me today. i felt sick, but i didnt see any bunnys around. and to yall that dont know, im highly alergic to bunnys, and those fluffy critters make me sneaze and puff up like a balloon D:. Ha. how i know this is this one time i tried getting a bunny for johnny for his birthday, and i bought it and all that jazz, and then all of a sudden i start sneezing and gagging and coffing. I brought it home to johnny and he asked me why i was all puffy and red. Then i went to the doctors and such. and he says im real allergic to them things. Disapointing, since i enjoy bunnys :3. ah well. any way. i felt like i was having bad allergies. At first all i was trying to do was get to the nightly double, but i remembered that the curtis' always keep some allergy medicine for me in thier bathroom cabinet. so i started walkin thier. I got thier and just walked in like usual. "hey girl. oh no. did u poke a bunny again?!" kit said sounding worried. "no. I learned my lesson the first time!" i sed between sneezes. this one time. actually. it was last week xD. me and kit were outside and i thought it would b cool to go poke a bunny, knowing i was allergic, but it was really tempting i swear. So i poked it and it made me hav this vicious allergy attack D:. "huuuh..sit down. il go get the damn medicine." she said sounding annoyed that she had to get up."thank -sneeze- you." "damn. thiers none left, u had to take like the whole bottle last week, guess we gotta go to the store, come on kid." kit sed while she began walkin out the door. We got to the store and i took the medicine while we were in thier. I was okay after that. so kit decided to tag along and go to the nightly double with me. "hey. hey kit. its our second date ;)." i said kidding around.  she pushed me away and we laughed. then all of a sudden, I see this girl i knew named jordan bays.shes a real tough greaser chick, with a pretty big ego. She was pretty. real long red hair, and these intense brown eyes that could scare the pants off u, or be the prettiest things uve ever seen. Any way, her and caleb used to go together. and she was staring at me like she had a problem. I just stared at her back and tapped kittys leg to show her. kitty looked at her, then me, looking confused. why is she staring? kitty mouthed to me. i shrugged. even though i was pretty sure i knew why. She started walking over. jeeze why does everyone pick fights with me? lol. it never ends well. for them atleast :). "hey. heard u was messin with caleb." she said with her three friends behind her. and this is a perfect example of wen her eyes can scare the hell outa you. i stepped closer to her. " I guess you could say that." i just stared at her. right through her dark eyes, showing her i wasnt scared of her. "yea? well i dont like it. so i suggest u back the fuck off before i do somethin bout it." she said giving me a nasty look and waving her hand in my face. "ha. and i suggest that u get ur hand the hell out of my face before i brake ur fingers." she turned her head and kind of laughed. Then she hit me. right in the face. Really hard to. my cheak was throbbing. but that wasnt gna stop me from beating the tar outa her. Kitty of course, was already screaming in her face. As kitty went on rambling about how she was going to pull out her insides. i randomly got up and hit her as hard as i could in the nose. she fell on the floor. her friends just stood thier like a bunch of wooses XD.  her nose was bleading hard core."ha u gotta little somethin underneath ur nose kid. id clean that up if i were u :p." i said smilling, trying to pretend my cheak wasnt killing me. me and kit just walked away like nothing happend. "so wat movie do u wana see for our second date ;)." kitty said winking at me. "wait...thiers a bunny over thier..." i said staring at it in amusment. "dont u dare dawn." she said rasing an eye brow.  to late. i was already over thier touching its fluffy tail. :D. It was so tempting, it like drew me in D:. i started sneezing and dieng and kitty just walked away laughing :).  i love wabbits XD.

drunken, lost, hot mess.

So much shit has happend since my last post. and it aint nothin good. Dawns been down in the dumps latley :/...ive been completly upset and dejected. Who wouldnt be? My best friends are leaving. Its killing me really. i feel like half of me has misteriously disapeared. Katie and soda lost thier kid. Brook and pony got jumped. i feel lost. like someone picked me up and dropped me in the middle of alaska or some shit. i dont know this place called "home" anymore. ive been drinking. like ur average alchoholic. brook and kit told me to stop. but i cant. It distracts me from feeling "lost" if that makes sense. So i did something that i thought might help. I went to Calebs house. idk y. and i didnt know what i wanted with him. I just needed to talk to someone, i could have talked to kitty or brook or bre. but maybe i didnt want to just talk to him, if u get what i mean..I walked to his house slowly, kicking curbs, drinking wisky as i walked. I sat on the curb drinking as much as my body would let me consume. i felt like i was in a dream sort of, That the twisted feeling in my stomach that i had for a week was only temporary, and wasnt real. As i walked the few lonley blocks i made it to his house,drunk, and in tears. but i made it thier. I dried my eyes because i didnt want him to see me like this. He was outside by his car.talking to a friend. i walked up to him slowly. "..dawn?" he said half conserned and half confused. i just stared at him. with no expression. he tried to take the bottle of whisky from me. i just pulled it back "Dawn. give me the bottle now." "no! i cant. i need it." "dawn! give me the god damn bottle!" he said pulling the bottle away from me. I looked him in the eyes after he took the bottle. i tried to keep my expresionless face. but i couldnt. i broke. and i started crying. it was either because i was real upset, or because he took my whisky. probably a little bit of both. i felt so dumb. me. dawn cade. tough as anything. crying. infront of an extremly hot guy that i liked. He pulled me in. and hugged me. I hated sympathy. it made me feel like a wussy. But no matter how much i hated it, i needed it. he brought me inside. i sat in the living room. "you want a drink or somethin?" he said walking in the kitchen. "yeah, my whisky." i said kinda bitchy. "nah. i was thinkin somethin more around the lines of lemonade or water." he said from the kitchen. i changed the subject. "wheres ur brothers."  he didnt answer my question and brought me in water, and a cup of somethin else. "drink this first. then drink the water." I put the darker drink up to my nose and smelt it. "what is this?" i said. "vinegar. damn, u act like im tryin ta poison u or somethin." he said kinda laughing. i should have known. vinegar cleans the alchohol out of all ur systems and all that jazz. i drank the vinegar, and then the water. "so whats goin on kid. why are u so upset?" he said. i told him the hole thing. About everyone leaving, about katie and the baby, everything. I hate sharing feelings. but i told him. and he gave me advice and helped me. Calebs a good kid once u get past the bad ass exterior. After we stopped talking we watched a movie bout a puppy who gets lost and needs to find his way back home with his trusty kitty cat side kick. it was intense. I fell asleep laying on caleb. I like him. he could b my alchohol for now.

doughnuts with a side of socs XD.

Aright. well im going to tell you what happend last night. Me, car, breanna, and dallas went to go see a movie like always, (because wat the hell are we supposed to do, its flippin deserted oklahoma for god sakes XD), any way. It was actually pretty intense, it was one of those movies that are scary but action packed at the same time. All the little girly girls watchin it were gettin all close to thier  boyfriends and screaming at the scary parts, and that was pissin me off. Its like, shut the fuck up. u knew this shit was gna make u wana piss urself. If ur just gna sit here and scream like ur being raped the hole time, then i cant enjoy my movie. "aright guys, we should go. SINCE SOME PEOPLE DONT HAVE THE BALLS TO WATCH A FAKE SCARY MOVIE, AND ARE RUINING IT FOR ME!!" i sed it as loud as i could, as loud as they were screaming during the movie :). "welp. that was lame." i said throwing my soda into the garbage. "yeah screw this, lets go home." Breanna said, i could tell she was as pissed as i was. "yall wana take the long way home, thiers a donut place on the way :D." carson said, sounding a little to happy bout those doughnuts XD. "pssh. yeah sure, why not." i said. i didnt care by then, i was starving. we went to the doughnut place and got doughnuts. we got a hole box of sprinkly doughnuts, choclate doughnuts,vanilla doughnuts, and these wierd ones the guy who worked thier suggested. He says they had "a suprize inside", i was like wtf XD. lets get um. Me made dal hold the doughnut box. after the whole box was empty we relized how big of a mistake that was. wat a fat ass XD. "so dubs, wat was the surprize inside -_-?" i said giving his chubby ass the death stare. "idk. tasted like raspberries or some shit." he said handing me the empty box. We all couldnt help but laugh, hes just so obiese XD. But of course, our night couldnt end on a good note, because all of a sudden, we see some socs walkin down the dark street. yippy. I wasnt in the mood for fighting. and thats the worst time to pick fights with me. "wana turn around?" bri asked looking at me. "naah, they aint gana make me change directions." i said stubbornly. we got close enough to see how many thier were. thier was 4 guys, thier was one scrawny one with dark hair, he looked nerdy XD, and the others, were big and tall, u could even see thier muscles threw thier sweater vests :3. they had this look on thier preppy little faces, u could tell they werent gna just simply walk by like they should have. "well well well. wat do we have here boys?" the biggest boy said with an evil smile, rubbing his hands together. they all started giggling. "a couple of greasers ey?" the more he talked. the madder i got. socs could get to me without even talkin smack. they started cursin at us. we were just gana ignore them, be the bigger person ya kno. i didnt wana fight that night, and im pretty sure car bri and dal didnt want to either, it was late. we all just wanted to get home and go to sleep. "trash." he said and then he spit at us. I felt it coming. that feeling i get wen im mad. Like i wana throw up and i got all heated and tense. wen he spit i started yelling and cursing and went to go punch him in the fucking face, but bri and dal held me back. I was so mad at them. We aint trash. "aww. now the little short one is gana try to hit us bentley?, wat ever shall we do?" the little one said sarcasticly. no one. no one fucking calls me short. Just as i was gna push dal and bri away and just deck him, car was already ahead of me. she snuck behind the stupid little one and put him in a choke hold. he was gagging and coughing like he was choking on his food :). "now that we got this situation under control, say ur sorry." carson said smiling and slightly strugling to keep the pueny one under control as he squirmed. "say ur sorry!" "no!!" say it! or i aint lettin go!" Sorry!" his words came out in little gasps. and he fell on the ground. "omg!" the one boy said. "just because u could do that to jake, doesnt mean u can do it to all of us." the biggest one said. dubs just walked up to him and decked him in the face. he was down in a second, and dallas had no expression. thier was still two left. me and bri were gettin a little bored, watchin all the action. so. the medium sized one was lookin around gettin a little nervous as i slowly walked up to him with the same evil smile that they had on thier stupid faces before. his eyes started getting wider as i got closer. He said, "wait wat are u gana-!" I punched him in his ugly face real hard, almost knocked his ass down. But. just for my pleasure. I kicked him were the sun dont shine to finish him off XD. he fell to his knees without speaking and looked about only half my height on his knees :3. "whos the short one now dumb fuck?!" i said yellin at him. Bri took care of the other guy he was lyin' on the ground with bri kicking him in his side XD. i think they knew who was boss now :3. "well, so much for goin home, huh?" i said out of breath, but laughing. everyone was out of breath after beatin them. but we all started laughing. I stopped laughing and caught my breath, "so, whose up for some doughnuts?"

Back to black:).

Black hair is tasty cool ;D. 

TO ALL MY LOVING LITTLE MUCHACHOS. the reason dawn has not been on to post or go on the chat is because my computer, unfortunatley exploded D:. and  I aint gettin a new one for A long time :(. say,how is dawn on the internet now, u ask?  Well this is because my computer is like. half broken, and the piece of shit teases me and stays on fer like a limit of 15 minutes, then turns off D:. i  miss u guys a hole lots D:...  BUT. on the magical side, I can use my ipod!..wen dawn finds the charger D:. until then my loves  <3, D dawg

I got up this morning feeling half delusional. i had slept all day the before, from 4:30pm , to 6:00 in the morning today, and I was rudley awoken to loud traffic, lighting, an annoying alarmclock, and a grey, rainy sky. Hell, i was so out of it, that i didnt even remember what day of the week it was. But then, i reached over to my phone, and had a slight feeling of discust, it was thursday. but it was ok because i rememberd me and shyler were hanging out today, the first time since i got back into town! I loved hanging out with shy, because we always had some kind of dangerous fun, which was my kinda fun ;). But i knew i was forced to go to the torcher chamber (school), first. I was tempted to reach over to my phone and see if anyone was up for playin' hookie today, but i decided it was a smart idea for me just to drag myself to school and get it over with, since my grades are slackin' pretty bad, and besides, were the hell was i gana go in this storm? So, i rolled out of bed, ( literally, right on to the cold wooden floor),and got ready for school. Brook was up. She was always so talkative and cheery in the morning, and frankly, it made me want to shoot myself, who wants to talk at 6:00 in the morning? idk bout yall? but im like satan in the morning lol. Any who, i left the house without sayin' a word of it. i was usually the first one to leave in the morning, but the last one home at night. Long boring story short, i got to school. almost died of boredum. got home. and called shyler. "hey. we still on for later?" i asked as i made myself some wierd sandwitch concocsion. "uuhhh..yeah, yeah,  sure. but i gotta little buisness to take care of, that cool?" I was debating weather it was cool or not. I hated watching him fight. It scared the hell out of me. He looked so dangerous when he fought. He didnt care weather he put the kid in the hospital or not, when he fought. he went all out.  It just freeked me out. seeing how harmful he could be. "yeah. its cool. no knives right?" hoping it was just a fist fight. When he used knives it scared me even more. "yeah no knives. just a clean fight." he said with no worry in his voice but he sounded sort of disapointed. He must really hate this kid if he wanted a knife fight. Even he knows they can be dangerous. "who u fightin'?" i asked. "yankel Bush." he said with evil and excitment in his voice. Yankel Bush. Aka Yankie. he was cold hearted and mean, he didnt have friends. just followers. he was best known for drugs and drug dealing, always drinking or having alchohol, and especially, for fighting dirty. He fights people for kicks, and trys to take on the best fighters in town. Even if he never had no problems wat so ever with a person, he particularly  fights kids with bad ass reps, and basically fights to add to his own reputation. Shyler gladly fights anyone who wants to  take him on, just for fun to see who can beat who, but he never wants to actually start a fight with someone unless he has a problem with them. So maybe he didnt hate yankie, he was just a worthy oponent. I didnt like the fact that he was fighting yankie, he aint a fair fighter from what i ever heard, i heard he pulls knives weather its clean or not. but i knew i shouldnt waste my breathe. shy wasnt about to bak out of a fight. but of course i put my two sence in anyway. "hes a dirty fighter..." i sed with worry in my voice. "ha." he merely laughed at wat i sed.."i can take um. and besides, im gna hav a lota people thier to bak me up if he tries anything."he sounded so sure of himself. but his being sure wasnt reassuring me at all. I was still pretty worried. But i still couldnt wait to hang out, why should i worry? shy was always ok, no matter the situation. but now i kno better...


I went to my friend kelly's house, because we were going to the drive in together. to go meet up with shy and alot of people. after debating. i just decicided i didnt want to watch the fight,id just leave wen he sed he was gna go fight.. why should i be thier? he can handle himself. We got ready to go at her house. and something in me decided i wanted to look really cute today :D. usually i dont care as much. were as il just put on jeans a cute shirt and mascara. but instead, i did my hair and put on eyeliner and all that other girly junk. i felt a little uncomfortable. i mean i do get all girly sometimes. but i think this was as girly as i could get. i was wearing a skirt and flats and  kelly curled my hair. i felt out of place :/. but watever. we left her house and made our way to the drive in. we met up with shy and his hole bad ass possy. I loved them all, because they were as reckless as they come XD. Blah..lacey was thier..shylers X girlfriend. actually, idk wat thier supposed to be. thier relationship confuses the hell out of me. She came over to shy and was hanging all over him. i hated her. She had real long blonde hair, with porcilen skin and blue eyes. sort of like a china doll. but i wasnt jelous of her. i just flat out thought she was a hoe. they werent dating anymore but she still always wanted to get with him...or just wanted to do stuff with him.im not sure witch one. but i think it was the second one. We had fun foolin around messin with socs, throwin stuf at people, talking loud during the movie and allmost getting kicked out, and finding beer from someone. We almost got busted for underaged drinking. but shy was the only one who was drinking at the time, so when the guy asked him were his ID was and he was all "uhhhh. i dropped it." it made me laugh.  but that cop was a dumb ass. and let shy "go look for it" i think the cop was either being nice, or he was just a little wasted himself. im not sure. but the cop stood thier waiting and we all just kinda slipt away and went to go find shy. he was talking to some people all the way on the other side of the drive in. we all gathered around shy and the other people he was talking to. "hell yeah, il fight him right now. were the hell is he?" shyler sed kinda angry but steady. "um alright. hes right outside the drive in, he says he aint tryin to get kicked out in the middle of the fight, he says he wants to finish it." the other guy sed to shy. "yeah yeah watevr, we'll see whose finishing who."  he always sounded cocky wen it came to fights. Alota people started following shy out the drive in, cept maybe 10 people,including me. but shy turned around. "dawn u aint comin'?" he said kind of surprised, since i usually go to his fights. "nnah. not this time shy." i said looking directly at him. "watever." he sed kind of mad. he turned away, and walked off with  his 25 people following him, but still looking so independent. ...i should hav been one of those people...now, i know better...


I felt like getting wasted should be on the agenda tonight. But everyone else i was with was bein all fruity and sed that they didnt feel like it. so we watched a movie. it was stupid. had alot of making out and stuff. like i didnt come here to watch this movie, to see two middle aged people making out. like wat do u think im some sort of sick-o? The movie dragged on and i just got up and left. i went to go find someone else who wanted to get drunk with me. Then i saw Shylers brother. He had blood on him. and blood made me nautious and made me want to pass out. he was running towards me. as he got closer, i looked him over. no cuts. it wasnt his blood. His facial expression was scaring the crap out of me. he always looked so happy. never upset, never scared.  But his face. he looked completley frightened, and he looked like he was about to cry. i tried to talk, "whats?!-" he stopped me. "shyler! yankie pulled a knife out of no were! his side! hes bleeding like crazy and it wont stop! Everyone tried to jump in but it was to late! Yankie left! he was drunk!" he was yelling at me, and wasnt taking any breaths, or making much sense, he couldnt control himself, he was shaking like crazy and had tears in his eyes. I felt myself wanting to throw up that very second. but i couldnt. not now. I wanted to cry. but i couldnt do that either.....not now. i didnt want to panic like his brother was, i needed to stay ok for the both of us. i just wanted to do so many things at once, cry, curse, throw up, scream, get help. I ran over as fast as i could. All i saw was a bunch of people in a circle some people calling the ambulance, and some peopl crying and freaking out.I pushed people out of the way and saw shy. i got completley sick to my stomach. he was on the ground.his friend was holding him uder his arms crying and cursing quitley, and another kid had his shirt off pushing on the huge cut on shys side with it, to stop the bleeding, but it wasnt doing much. Shylers eyes were rolling back, he was loosing so much blood. thier was blood everywere. I never seen him look so helpless. His cut was atleast a foot long.I knew shyler shouldnt have fought him. But i didnt stop him. I kneeled down. "shyler! wat happend! talk to me..please talk!, shyler say something please!" I was yelling at him, like he would have said something back. I kept telling him to answer me and he didnt. I was cursing like crazy. "dammit shyler..dammit. why do u get urself into these god damn messes huh?.....god fucking dammit." i wispered closing my eyes tight so i didnt start balling. sure enough the ambulance came and rushed him straight to the hospital. his brother went with him thier. everyone else was still flipping out and shaking and everything. I went to the corner and threw up. I was shaking like crazy and I didnt want to talk to anybody. I knew these people would talk non stop the next day at school. I knew they would hav it in thier mouths all day, wat happend, who would have won the fight, they would have asked me questions about shyler, wat i did wen i saw him get stabbed. but i wasnt thier..and i should have been. but now i kno better.....

I went home at about 12. Brook asked me wats wrong. but i didnt say a word. I kept the same expression, and locked myself in my room. I couldnt sleep. I was only thinking about if my best friend was ok..thier was so much blood everywere. people cant hav that much more then that... his cut was pretty big. I shook my head and tried to think possitive. but i still got no sleep because i felt sick. completley discusted and i felt like i was going to die. I didnt want to go to school on friday. that was the last place i wanted to be. i didnt want to talk about it. i didnt want to think about it. i didnt even want to here the name "shyler" come out of anybodys mouth. but i knew i couldnt avoid it. i left in the morning, again, saying nothing. People in the halls were whispering when they looked at me. I just gave them a look of discust. People were coming up to me all day asking me "what happend?" Who won?" what did he do when he pulled out the knife?" i ignored them completley. and just walked away from them and thier stupid questions.They knew damn well they could have figured out wat happend from 100 other people. but they wanted to ask me cuz they figured i would have the most dirt on the subject. low lives. I was in first period finally, after walking threw the halls of hell, getting talked about and asked questions i didnt want to answer. i was never so thankful to be in class in my life. It was 15 minutes into the period, and i couldnt consentrate. At all. i had to read from the book out loud and i couldnt do it. i stutered, tripped over words, and i was feeling nautious again. "and the uhmm................. average..velocity" i stopped. "um can i go to the nurse..i dont feel so good." i said, my voice sounded really shakey. And i hated how everyone knew why. " here let me write u a pass." she said. I felt more and more nautious and decided forget the pass, i m gana throw up. so i ran out of the class room before i got the pass and since my class is right by the front door, i threw up as soon as i got outside. I was so relieved that i didnt throw up in front of the class, and i beat it out of thier just in time. Instead of going back to class..i went home. I just wasnt up for school. I got a phone call on my cell wen i walked in the door. it was shylers brother. he told me that shy lost alot of blood. and they dont know if hell be "okay". I hung up straight away. wat did he mean shy might not be okay, he was wrong. so were the doctors. shyler was always okay. no matter what. he made it threw so much. he always did. The doctors didnt no wat they were talking about.......but i knew i didnt believe myself, they knew better then i did...... I felt something wierd coming over me. my body got all hot and i felt nautious again. i went in my room. I felt dizzy. i didnt want this anymore, why did that have to happen to him. i felt like dying. it was driving me insane.i was almost going to pass out. but i shook it off. i couldnt take this anymore. for the first time in 9 years i slid down the wall i was leaning against for balance so i didnt pass out, to the bottom and crouched in the corner of my room wall, and cried like crazy. I just cried myself to sleep in the corner of my dark room. And wished this would go away...but it couldnt just go away. as i slowly fell into a deep, dreamless sleep, then rain began again, and it was pooring just like on thursday morning..

Padre island

i think padre means father in spanish. father island? thats a little odd D:. anyway IT IS AMAZING HERE. simply the most beautiful place IVE ever seen. The best part so far was the ocean. Im at the beach from 8 o clock to 6:00 o clock at night every day so far, and im trying to talk evie into sleeping on the beach,  but she says it gets cold at night D:. but me and evie are going club hoppin tonight XD. i cant wait. Uww!! and were gna swim with dolphins. i cant wait. I love me some bottle nosed dolphins ^-^. We already met some friends ^-^. thier really nice and hav silly little texas accents. its kinda great. I love this place and wish i lived here...but im getting home sick already :(. I miss you guys, but il b home in 6 days or so. Me and evie got a pretty mean tan. were lookin pretty spiffy. lol. We took soooooo many pictures to. But thiers still so many things on my list that we need to accomplish while were here. Like, swimming with dolphins, getting me one of those fancy cow boy hats, going in the ocean so far that we cant touch the bottom, attempting surfing, talking to some native texians and using the word yall every other word, square dancing, writing in the sand, looking for shells,and much more :D.Yall need to come here sometime. I kno you'd love it. its just one word. Amazing.

Me and evie :).

                                 lmao yea, thats real attravtive..ha. we both look like idiots XD                             

Dawn is slackin'.

im gna post bout everything thats going on :D. since i havent really latley.

ok so..

1. DAWN AND EVIE IS GOING TO PADRE ISLAND IN TEXAS TONIGHT! WERE DRIVING THIER!...i wouldnt rather b anywere else then the ocean. when i get older thats were im living because i think its the most beautiful thing in the world. i love everything about it..

2.I got kitty to come bak to tulsa soon. yay :'). i get my best friend bak :}!!!!

3.Me and shy got in cop trouble the other day...long story short. we were at a big party. and we all got introuble for "posession of drugs" even though i didnt touch any. and "underaged drinking"...now that i cant denie. but luckily, out of my 16 years. for once this cop wasnt an ass, and he let us all off with a call to our parents. lol brook just answered the phone and pretended she was my mom :). thannks sis!

4.Shy (jamies X bf) and jamie went on a um..idk wat to call it...im gna say date :). even though u guys may not think so, but in dawns mind. thats wat is is :p. u better post about it!!! u better tell me everything.


5. brook found a brand new dog since she had to giv him away the other one(cali) and she got a new one!! its nname is frankie! (but its really nnamed bucket in my mind)


thats about it :D! thier. im caught up now ^-^.

p.s. comment or il b upset with u :(.



WERE ME AND EVIE ARE GOING! ISNT IT BEAUTIFUL :}!!

                              Padre island, Texas :)!!

their, 80 reasons.

80 Reasons why kitkat is my best friend, and the reasons she needs to stay in Tulsa. and the things il miss if she doesnt..


1. your my best friend.
2. your have so many people who care here.
3. your familys here.
4. where are u gna go?
5. so u can keep me out of trouble.
6. because this is your home, and you were raised here.
7. youll make new friends.
8. u might start hanging out with the wrong crowd.
9. youll forget about us.
10. alot of people will start leaving.
11. the gang will fall apart.
12. the gang needs you.
13. the gang will replace u. and i dont kno wat i would do.
14. who will i hang out with...
15. who will make sure your safe?
16. what if something happens, and i cant be thier for you.
17. ill need a new best friend.
18. who will burn my popcorn for me?
19. you make me laugh till i want to pee myself.
20. your wierd as hell, just like me :).
21. who will i watch girly movies with?!, not with the guys D:..
22. i can talk to you about anything.
23. you can talk to me about anything.
24. your always thier for me.
25. im always thier for you.
26. wen im feeling the worst, u make me feel better.
27. when YOUR feeling the worst, i try my best to make u feel better, who will do that for u :{.
28. the way you sing corny songs
29. the way u embarass me by acting like an idiot :).
30. the way I embarrass u by acting like an idiot.(who else could embarass u like me?!)
31. how wen im being a bitch, u try and help me anyway.
32. the crazy things we do together, the things we couldnt do with anyone else.
33. how u hardly ever get mad at me.
34. how we aaaaaaalways get eachother.
35. how u always forgive me...when no one usually does.
36. how we tell eachother everything.
37. how u can practically read my mind, and i can read urs.
38. we always get eachothers jokes, wen no one else does.
39. the way we finish eachothers sentences.
40. all of our inside jokes, that no one else would get.
41. The way we never give up on eachother
42. The things that only ME nd YOU could do for fun, that other people would think is wierd.
43. the way you hit soda with ur spoon :).
44. Your my other half.
45. Your laugh is contagious :).
46. Your so smart, and im not. i need ur smarts :3.
47. I love how you would do anything to make me happy..when not many people would.
48. I would do anything to make you happy.
49. Who would protect me? D:.
50. How you understand why i do things.
51. how i understand why you do things.
52. I love how strong and independnt you are.
53. no one can replace you :(.
54. youll forget about when we were best friends :(
55. youll forget about when we were kids :(, and move on.
56. youll make a new best friend.
57. the way you push me to try hard in school, when no one else cares.
58. how we can have hour long conversations about the stupidest stuff.
59. how were always honest with eachother
60. the times we spend together shopping, seeing movies, just hanging out, are always fun.
61. how hyper and retarted we get together.
62. how if i dont want to be home, u always let me stay at ur house (and vise versa)
63. il miss your crazy ness
64. The way u refuse to completley grow up.
65.our crazy voices, sounds, and imitations that we always do together.
66.How you are always concerned about me, and im always concerned about you.
67. Your always good at everything, when im not.
68. il miss the places we go together D:.
69. ur my first best friend. and i dont no how to make a new one like u:(
70. how we are risk takers together.
71. how you always no what to say when we get in cop trouble.
72. how you always comfort me (vise versa)
73. Il loose part of my family.
74. you'll ruin my streak of not crying for 9 years.
75. how we always finish eachothers sentences.
76. we always think the same guys are cute.
77. how i can never stay mad at you.
78. the way you always listen to me
79. the way i always listen to you.
80. That i love you and if you leave...i dont know what would happen to me or you.

Thank you.

I woke up in the morning.(feelin like P-diddy.) lol nah..i woke up with a fuckin insane hang over. i was misserable. I didnt evenn remember the movie! What even happend? But i thought to myself. Dallas+steven+dawn drunk= many possibilities. Whatever, i thought. it couldnt b to bad.... right?....I went in the bathroom and brushed my teeth and accomplished all my other morning doings. Then I thought. Why don't I hang out with shyler today? So. Most of you no shyler. Me and him have been friends since grade school.I loved him (as a friend), because he was such a great friend. He was always thier for me, always helping me with my problems. we are alwayys joking around together, we just always had fun(usually doing things we shouldnt be doing), and he was just different. and you could tell.Shyler had a hard child life. scratch that. shyler just has a hard life. Which causes him to do alot of things hes not supposed to do. Hes a bad ass kid, but u can tell somewere inside of him is a good kid, and he doesnt deserve half of the bull shit his life gives him. He was ALWAYS introuble. Weather its from school, to cops, to adults, or girlfriends. He was always doin stuff he wasnt supposed to do. He has alot of friends, and out of all those people, i dont think he trusts even one of them, i dont even think he trusts me. And its not my fault or his. Its because of his life that caused him to think, he cant trust not one person but himself. And i respect him for that. I was talking to jamie and she told me they used to date! i was like how come I never know anything? Well apparently it was a 6 month relationship. imagine that? never would have guessed. I didnt nno jamie was into bad boys..but watever haha. Anyway, I called shyler up and he didnt answer. but i knew were hed be. I left my house and walked to the park. and thier he was, with a good 15 kids, leaning up against a fence talking. I dodged everyone and went up to him. "hey." i sed. "eyy,watsup?" he sed with a cigaretee in his mouth. i took the cigarete out of his mouth and stepped on it. "hey, come on, thats my last one." he sed kinda laughing. i threw it on the ground and stepped on it. He sed later to his friends and me and him decided to go do "nothin' leagil" lol. We walked for a while and had silly conversations about Dr. phil being so bald, and the fact that michael jackson is a pedophile. We always had the best conversations. we snuck into the movies and watched some stupid movie with lindsey lohan? that chick seriously needs to stop acting. So we left cuz it was getting to be kinda homosexual. We went to The mall and decided to go shopping with our "five finger discount." ;). and i usually dont go stealing with other people, its to risky, but he was real good at it. and i trusted him. It was cool. we stole the most random pointless things, like pokemon cards, sunglasses, and a snuggie? that one was hard to steal lol. the only stuff we got with purpose was cigarettes and a switch blade. It was my kinda fun :D. It was around 8 so we decided just to hitch a ride bak to my place and make some food or somethin. We hitched with some old hippie guy, the van reeked with bear and drugs, and shyler figured it was cool to pop a cigarette in his mouth, it wouldnt do the smell any worse, thats for sure. He dropped us off and We walked in my place. no one was home(as usual), but I saw we had mail. I skipped right trew the magazines, bills, etc., and saw this one letter. It had my old adress on it. thats wen my heart dropped. i didnt want to have anything to do with my parents. i didnt want to talk to them, see them, hear them, or even think about them. mean while, shyler was making food and sitting on my counter. I flinched to throw the letter out. but i was curious wat they wanted. So i opened it. it was from my mom..." dear johnny, brooklyn, and dawn. I know you don't want to talk to me right now. But i have to tell You, that your father died in a car accident." Everything else i read beyond that point was a blur and i wasnt even thinking about what i was reading. My father....died? It wouldnt sink in to my brain. No matter how much i wanted to hate him, or how much i wanted to pretend i didnt care. I knew i did because my father wasnt always a horrible person. everything got blury as tears started to fill my eyes, and i was startled because of it. I never cry..and i didnt want to start now. I started paceing and waving my hands at my face to cool me off. My eyes were shut tight, and i was breathing sort of heavy, so no tears could escape. Thats when Shyler jumped off the counter and walked over to me. He picked up the letter and read it. He had no expresision, and he wasnt sad. he hated my father. He walked over to me slowly and pulled me to his chest. The more i thought about it the more i wanted to cry. So i just kept thinking, he kicked u guys out of ur house, he screamed at u,..he hit u. I pulled bak the tears but still felt sick. he held me tight. "come on, dont break on me now. Remember when we were 8? and we were both in that empty parking lot ridin our bikes cuz both our parents were flippin out on us and we sed we were gna run away, but we didnt? That was the last time u cried. and it was only because u slammed into that fence on ur bike because u were busy turned around talkin to me. u were ballin but i thought it was hysterical. that was the last time u ever had a tear in ur eye." he said trying to look at me but i hid my face in his shirt because i didnt want him so see me upset. "thanks." i sed quitley, because the more i talked the more my voice cracked, and i didnt want to cry. "any time dawn..anytime." he sed quitely. he was still hugging me and he still had no expression. This question popped into my head, and i just blurted it out like a dumb ass. i looked up at him. " are we more then friends?" i said to him and about a half second later i relized wat a dumb question that was. He smiled the slightest bit, but u could tell his mind was somewere else, he didnt seem surprised by my question at all. "we always have been." He sed. "then why have we always just stayed friends?" i asked, again, noticing it was a stupid question and i shoud just stop talking. "it aint that easy. We could never date. Because i am possitive i would disapoint you." he said staring off some were. As much as i wanted to tell him no. You wouldnt. I knew i would be lieng to him, and myself. I was friends with shyler since we were kids. i was thier for his first cut. when he broke his first arm. when he had his first girlfriend.The first time he got drunk. When he got in his first fight. And when his brother died. I was thier for him. All those times were i had to pull him out of these bad choices he would hav made if i wasnt thier, the times he was flipping out in his room, punching walls, because his parents were driving him crazy. No matter how much that always scared me wen he did that, it was either me or one of his other friends who were thier. and even through all that, no matter how much he cares about me, i new if we dated he would hurt me. and it wasnt his fault or mine. It was just the fact that hes shyler, and he could never get it right, because he was great at hurting the ones he cared for the most. so i didnt complain. plus, i didnt want to ruin our friendship in a 10 minute conversation. He stopped hugging me and we sat on the couch. We started talking about things like the shamwow, and how fat chicks shouldnt wear tight shirts. and how hannah montana is over rated, and also how american idol is nothing without paula. We started laughing and soon i just forgot about the hole thing. It got late and as we kept talking i just fell asleep. and when i woke up. All the lights wer turned off, i had magically appeared in my bed, my blankets were over me, and he was gone.

WTF! DAWNS BLONDE?!

lmao..idk wat to post bout..uw! i got somethin. Um evie. wen are we gana go on our rode trip?! Cuz i reallyy wana go D:. lets see...uhhh...nothin is really goin on. sept i died myy hair blonde :D. woohoo. and oh. someone hav a party D:<. i wana get wasted :(.

Magic Mushroom.

...No pony, im not dead. No Johnny, i am not addicted to drugs. No steve, evie was completley fine. And so am I. i just keep seeing wierd things in the corner of my eye, and once and a while colors mush together and things start goin in slow motion. but they told me thats normal for about to weeks after you do it. other wise,im fine. Evie got to my house real late, i was in a terrible, cranky, depressed, self deprecating, dejecected, misserable mood. For a lot of reasons. but thats not what this post is about. Any way, Evie came in,and i got off the computer. Angela shepard wanted to come with us so why not let her? "you ready dawn?" Evie said excitedly. "Your stayin' sober kid, i promised steven, member?" i said raising an eye brow (a trick i picked up from two bitch :D). "huuuuuh...fine. but i am not carrying ur fried asses home." Evie told us rolling her eyes. " Hey dawn, i know some people who are goin' to the party tonight, theyll have what we want." angela said. "good." i said. I never did drugs before. but thiers a first for everything. i just wanted to try it. see if it really does help you forget everything like everyone says. We left my house around 10 and angela brought us to the house were the party was. The house was alone on some road, it looked like it was out in the country someweres. We walked in and thier had to be a good 60/70 people.The house was so cool, it was colorful and inviting, it looked alomost like a play house. thier was colorful lights, paintings, and the walls were bright pink, nothing matched, everything was a different color. maybe a third of everyone looked like hippies. and i knew that hippies = drugs. I already saw some people on the couch doin' coke, but i wasnt interested in that. People wered drinking, laughing, dancing, singing, jumping off couches,dirty dancing, and smoking stuff, but im not sure what, they would just sit on the floor and pass it around in a circle. We followed angela and she gave hugs to a bunch a people and introduced me and evie. I loved meeting new people. Angela had alota friends. After our little "meet and greet", me angel and evie started dancing. I loved the music they had on. It was crazy and wierd, and just made u wanna dance. I was thirsty, so i went and got us drinks. I came back. and i couldnt find them in the huge mob of people. It was so excrusiatingly loud in thier, its not like they could hear me. i tried yelling for them. but i got no response. i got the memo that im just gna have to look around for them. I looked and looked and they were no were to be found. i started getting worried for them, and for me being alone. I found evie sitting at a table with a few other girls just talking. I sat by her. "wered angel go?" i said worried. "i have no idea, she went off with some guy." evie said half screaming over the music."shit, i hope we can find her by the ennd of the night, i dont need her brothers mad at me." i said. i was most worried because i knew angel was either really drunk,high, or horny. Or maybe all of the above. Me and Evie got up to look for her and she was no were in sight. We went outside to look, she was thier with a bunch of kids. she ran over to me. "dawnie!!!!!!!!, how arez uu sweaty?!." she said drunker then u could imagine. then she started mumbling something but i couldnt understand her. I knew i had to stay with her at this point. Her and these hippy lookinn kids our age started walkin down the road. " were are u going angela?!" i said prettyy pissed off. "Im jusssst gna goo try some magicall mushrooooom dawwwnnn.." She said lagging on every word that came out of her mouth. i knew i had to go with her. i couldnt leave her. and its not like i didnt want to experiment with it. So me and evie decided to follow them down the dark, silent, nothingness,and maybe at one point, something that wasnt woods and dirt road would appear.after walking and half freezing to death, we made it to this old looking house. It was wierd, it looked like it was an old abbandend hippie house, but then again, i saw people walking in and out of it from a distance. The people were full blown hippies, with the peace necklesses and bell pants, and the long hair wavy down thier backs( yes,even the guys.) I reached for the door handle but the one kid we were with grabbed my hand, as if to stop me from touchinng it. i gave him one of those wtf looks. He let go of my hand and knocked on the door. A man opend it, he looked older, with hippie clothes, and long grey hair pulled bak in a pony tail, it was hard to tell the rest of what he looked like though, the door was open so slightly. The kid who was with us whispered something to the man. The man nodded slightly and let us in. I guess thiers a password to get in, incase its an intrudur, or the fuzz of course. We went in. It was like i was alice in drug land. thier was about 25 people in thier. ALL HIPPIES. A few sat in circles passing around weed, or watever they were smoking, i could be completley wrong. Some were poppin pills while laying on the floor. some were just talking. some were even laughing to themselves, but most were stoned, or meditating. Thier was no music playing, everyone was at peace. The house was colorful like the last one. with old beat up furniture, and faded colorful walls. Thier was so much tye dye i thought i was gna throw up. It was a pretty big house, thier was an upstairs. It had some people up thier, who also were fried on some type of drug. But most were down stairs in the big room with the beat up couches and dusty rug. I saw this in a movie once, It wasnt a party or nothin,all these hippies just lived here, hippies would just leave and come as they pleased, without paying. All this place was,was a place to do drugs, meditate, a place to crash, and hippies. "come here flower children." the man said to us in a raspy, hippie voice. We followed him into the big room, thier was a few different round rugs in the room. we took the one that wasnt occupied by other hippies. "sit down children." The hippie said. We sat down. I was starting to get a little freeked out by this place. but i didnt say nothin. "here, take this." he said to me first.I felt a wave of nervouses shoot up my body."ummm...what do i do with it?.." i said nervously. "haha. wat ever you think you should do man, just go with the flow." the hippie guy said. I thought to myself. this is shroom. shroom is mushroom. and mushrooms can be eatin...I hesitated. "itl b fine man! Its a fun trip.it gets u to were u wana be...Zen." He said ever so hippie like. "zen?" i asked. " means peace man." He said. "oh." i said feeling stupid, but hes a hippie, i aint the stupid one. So i stopped bein a baby. and i put it in my mouth, and chewed it. Then it started. The room. it was slowly mushing together, things, colors, were colliding. I could here the hippie say something to me. but i had no idea wat it was. It sounded like a collision of words, just like the things i was seeing. I started seeing these colors, i had no idea wat they were called. they were just a huge collage of colors. I started getting nautious, and sopposedly, according to evie i started flipping out a little bit, and breaking into a sweat. I started seeing colorful flowers blooming in mid air, but they all kept changing colors and i was gettinng completley confused. I saw birds flying in the air, and then they faded into nothing and it looked like the hippies face was bleeding uncontrolably, that scared me. Then i felt like i was laying down.The ceiling looked like it was pulsing and the way the light hit the shadow creases in the ceiling, it made it looks like it was moving. Then all of a sudden i saw kermit the frog. Dancing, and kind of wiggling, and spazzing out, he came closer to me. I started dying laughing, and then i saw cats skipping in a circle with each other, they were also changing colors. It was so funny. but then it changed again. I started babbling about happy stuff, and how i loved everyone, and myself. I started singing about how i loved life. and then the world started changing again, i was flying, everything around me was the sky and clouds, the clouds were changing colors, and thenn they turned black. I was laughing so hard. I came bak down to earth and was in the room again. I saw everyone in the room. Two of the boys were tripping really bad. but i was ok now. I was just really blured out. "are you bak? how was it man?" the hippie said. I didt say anything for a minute...i just looked around and made sure i was bak in the real world. colors were still a little mushed. but i was definitly bak. "that was crazy. but in a good way." i said smiling. i was taking deep slow breathes. Evie looked worried. " you ok dawn?.." she said with a confused look on her face. "yeah im good, now i am." i said lookin around the room, still slightly hilusinating. We stayed for mabye another half hour when me angel and evie decided to walk home. The hippie told us "peace" and we replied it bak. he told us to come bak any time. but i dont kno if i will. I was tired, and a little spooked. They asked me wat i saw and i told them the hole thing. they thought it was pretty funny. we finally got to evies place and just stayed thier for the night. I woke up in the morning wondering if it was all a wild dream.... and thier right, i did forget everything for one night..

growing up can take a day off for a change

I was in the worst class of my day. (math) when i saw somethin i hadnt seen in a long time. Snow. it was falling slowly and feathery, in large white clusters, lightly peppering the ground and the the dark bare trees outside the school window. i started just day dreaming, looking at it as it stuck to the window, rapidly melting. it looked so soft, and peaceful. it was so simple but yet so beautiful.as i stared out the window, and rememberd all the wonderful things snow gave me. snowball fights,snow angels,building snow men,sleding, and playing fort with the boys :). I relized im growing up way to fast, learning and seeing things i shouldnt have. im only 15.im still a kid.i decided after school, i was going to play in the snow. I got home.I put on my big jacket and my gloves, and my snow pants, and my hat, and my boots. I went to the lot and just sat in the snow and smiled, and looked up. the snow was slowly falling on my face, and i almost started laughing, but then i relized i was by myself so that would be wierd lol. The snow was still falling slowly and peacefully. It looked like white cotton balls falling in slow mo. i looked at each little white cotton ball that fell out of the gray cloudy sky. I got up and made a little ball and started rolling it in the snow. it got bigger and bigger, and then i rolled three other fairly large balls and made a snowman. after i was done, i noticed the snow had stopped falling..i started feeling sad, i knew i had to get back to growing up. and the fun was over. i just stood thier looking at my snow man. I slowly took my hat off, and put it on him. and walked back to my house as slowly as i could.

all fun and games.......right?...

angelica's party was crazy. since most of you were discustingly wasted, and Dawn decided that she wanted to remember the party this time :). So i got ready, straightend my hair, put on makeup, etc. Brook was upset, so she didnt want to go. i kept asking her to just come and have fun, but she was lookin' like she was about to cry, and i knew why. So i stopped and decided to just let her be.I was gna stay with her, but what could i have done? so i left. i walked kinda fast to kits house.( who knows wat kinda creepers are out at these hours :D lol.) and she was ready as soon as i got to the door. kitty told me everyone was at angelicas already. so we went ourselves. We got to jelly filled's house and thier was freekin' a million people in thier! not just our gang, like everybody! the music was so loud, people were making out,dancing,yelling, laughing,talking,guys were bringin thier girls upstairs (ew) and most of all, everyone was drinking, i just thought to myself, this is gna b one wild ass party. Jellys house is pretty big, so she could fit alotsa people in thier. I saw Car and steven and evie,so i went over to hang out with them. me, evie, car, and kit decided to strand steven by himself, and go dance, it was so fun! the music was so loud, mostly techno shit. Well, even though i sed i wasnt gna drink, these kids were playin beer pong, so i played, cuz im pretty beastly at that game anyway,carson,kitty, and evie played to. They got pretty drunk, but i was just kinda tipsy. later on, Angelica walked in with Cam, laughing and flirting, and i knew that thier date must have went well :). they started dancing, and about an hour later, basically EVERYONE was wasted.(except soda, katie, blair, and jamie)Then this kid siting in the living room in a circle of like 25 people shouted "hey girls wana come play spin the bottle!?" i just looked around, and was gna say no, but everyone that i was with was wasted!, and they wanted to play!.so..i dodged threw everyone else dancing and sat down nervously, like 25 people were playing, girls and guys, (including johnny, pony, jelly,steven,jamie,Evie,kitty, cam, and dal). this wasnt gna b good...i was so close to just dragging all my drunk friends outa thier, but i decided to be a dumb ass, and kinda not notice at the time, that almost all of them are dating someone. It was this kids turn first, he span the bottle, and my heart dropped. It didnt land on any of us, thank god. they did thier thing, and this girl span next. It landed RIGHT on kit. i was gna die. she wouldnt do that..but she was drunk...and she did. all the guys started looking and smiling, and sayin nnasty stuff, so i socked one of the guys right in the face, and he shut his trap. Some girl landed on me to, and i just sed, not in this life time! and the next girl span, and it landed right on steven. i was gna smak him if he kissed her, his gf was right thier! but hhe did, and she was to drunk to notice. i looked at him in discust, even though he was drunk wen he did it.Jamie wasnt drunk, but she played anyway...she span the bottle, and it landed on..tim shepard. He had noooo problems with it. and they kissed,i was gna kill her for kissing him. everything was starting to get a little crazy. it was a few turns later johnny span, i was just hoping none of these girls had herpies. but, to my surprise, it landed on a wasted Jelly. They didnt seem like they had any problems with it, so they leaned in and kissed for a good 15 seconds. Cam was ok enough to relize that,n he got up and left. i felt really bad. So i went after him. He was just sitting on the front porch not saying anything. i went up to him and tried to convince him she would NEVER hav done that if she was sober. he seemed to lighten up a little and look less tense, and just sed he needed to cool off, and he walked somewere. i went back inside.Dally was making out with some skank. and as soon as i went over thier to yell at him, i see evie spin the bottle, and it landed on pony, and they kissed. steven was just as drunk as everyone else, so he didnt even notice.thats enough i thought. before this goes anywere else i pulled all of them away from that game. it was begining to get to be to much. I bet alot more went on while i was outside trying to get through cam's thick head that she will regret it in the morning. But i dont wana no wat else went on. So i decided to just, go to sleep in angelicas moms room...sorry angelica lol. i woke up the next day, and no one rememberd or noticed anything. and i just pretended i didnt either..anyone remember anything else that i didnt see?...

One of a kind :).

I was veryyyy excited to get to school today! (yea, thatl never happen again.)
becauuuuuuuuuusee, an amazing person named kitkat knows a guy, and asked him to change up Tony's schedule a little, so we'd have some classes together! (yay). So, i made sure i looked extra cute. I did all the morning fun, rolled out of bed,fed spunky, yelled at brooke to get out of the shower( but seriously, she takes like 45 minute showers), got breakfast, and ran out the door. I walked into first period and saw him and ALL his glory standing thier talking to ms. Jayson about something. i smiled a little and sat down....and then i rememberd. During the weekend, i had a project i had to do and we had to present it, we had to make a song about the divisibily rules. i felt like i was going to pass out. The first day he gets to see me, im going to be singing about math,great first impression hu? . So i just sat thier, nervously, thinking of sometype of way to get out of this, but thier was no escape. i had to sing infront of him. " Dawn Cade your up." ms. Jayson said smiling. everyone started clapping and cheering my name like a bunch of idiots. I was dumb founded, i seriously didnt want to do this. but i had to. i was shaking and started to read/sing off my sheet,i thought i was gna throw up as i was saying the embarassing song, everyone was giggling, of course i had to be the one to break the ice for everyone else. It felt like forever,but i finished my stupid song about dividing. "very good Dawn! im proud of u!" my teacher said, i handed her the paper, and i wanted to start crying, but i sucked everything up as usual, and sat down and watched everyone else go. By the time class was over,i was so completly mordified, that i zoned out and didnt even here the bell ring. "dawn, come here for a second?" my teacher said after everyone left the class room, except Tony. -_- yay. "i understand you and tony hav similar schedules?, i want you to help him out, show him were to go." she turned to tony," shes not our best student, but hopefully she payed attenntion enough to show u were u have to go." she said quietly, trying to keep me from hearing. I started walking to the door, and didnt look at him, partly because i was embarrased, and partly because he makes me nervous as hell."Hey, thanks for that inventive rendition of divisibility rules, What other talents should I be leery of?" he said smerking at me, as we walked to class. I was super pissed off and embarrased." well atleast it wasnt as bad as Trudy's, singing will not be in her future." i said not smiling or anything. He laughed a little, flashing his perfect teeth."hey,I’m not saying you weren’t any good. I would just keep your day job." He said smiling, i couldnt help but smile back, he was to cute."and what, ur an amazing singer urself?, wat hidden talents should I be aware of?" i said smiling, kind of staring at his perfect face. "well, thats for me to know, and you to find out." he said smiling. he kind of was looking at me up and down, sizing me up and stuff. after he was done, he smiled a little. "what, are you asking me on a date or someting?" i said half joking. "no, but it looks like you asked me out on one." he smiled. i loved when he smiled. "sorry, i can be a little forward at times :)." i said. " well, i will call you later and let you know when you can take me out.:)." he said still smiling. I looked at him. and smiled. he smiled back. its not like we were going on a date, date, just as friends, but hopefully it turn into something more :). we continued talking throughout the day, about really cool, random stuff. I felt like the more i got to know him, the better looking he got. on top of looking amazing, he had a perfect personality, he was kind of perfect :). but anyway, does anyone wana come along with us, double dating is sooooo much less akward. id reeeaaallyyy apreciate it XD.

Tony Liam Triston parker. Yum ;).

So after school today, i decided to go with some of my girlfriends to the drive in :D. It was really fun, we ran into alota people we knew and we all fooled around alot. The movie we watched was great, had alot of kongfu and killing. i picked it of course. Jackie chan kicked some serious ass ;). It was around 8:00 wen the movie ended.but we all decided to stay and walk around, maybe find some alchohol. But then thier he was again. that beautiful, beautiful boy. i almost wanted to scream,and cry, i got so rediculously happy and excited. but it wouldnt make me look to cool if i had. "look thiers that really hot kid again." my friends were saying, wispering,and giggling. i wasnt paying attention to them, i was in my own little world staring at him, watching him talk to these cool kids i knew. With the way he looks he deserves to b part of the cool crowd. He was laughing and so were they. They were by one of thier cars sitting on it and talking. My friends were all in this little circle telling secrets about him. while i was outside of thier little possy, staring at him. He didnt look though, thank god, because i would look exactly like all those other girls staring at him, and i didnt want to b like them. but i couldnt help it, he was mezmorizing. Some girl came over to him and the other boys, she was pretty, about 5ft 6, long black hair down her bak, and dark brown eyes, tan skin, annd straight bangs. she was cute, but u could tell she was a greaser. they were all talkin to her and stuff, then she started walking over to us. Some of my friends new her. so they started talking to her. I went over to them and joined thier little chat, of course i did because i wanted to know if she was dating him, she was pretty i wouldnt b surprised."you know him?" my friends asked her surprised. "well i should, i mean he is my brother." she sed with a smirk."uww! wats his name!" my friend said overly excited...."Tony." (Wondering how i happen to kno his full name?, my friend told me, she has class with him. the teacher has a tendency to say thier full name wen thier new lol.)

Wtf, How do you look like that?

yay. its february :D. that means its almost march, and that means its almost spring!!!! spring is when im most peppy :D. ok, im completley going off topic here. ok so. I go to school this morning, ur average suckish monday. I go to my classes, go to lunch. percrastinate in the halls, etc. Well the next bell finally decided to ring and i get out of that hell hole of a class room. and the hallways are flouded with people, going to thier classes, and such. When i see this kid. He musta been new cuz ive never seen him before, trust me, i would hav rememberd him. Lemme just break it down for you, He was like 6ft, dark brown hair it was greased back and some pieces fell over his face,so obviously he was a greaser (yay!),He was wearing the normal clothes, flannel shirt, converse, jeans, and this wierd chain with some symbol on it. he had baby, ice blue eyes, that were sorda addicting to stare at. he was very muscular :). again, yay. his teeth, were straight, white and perfect, ya know, the kind u see on the orbit comercials? he was tan, i was confused, because usually people who are pretty tan have darker eyes, but he didnt, and they stood out. His eyes though were just oddly hypnotizing, ive never really seen nything like it, they were completly and udderly beautiful. His mouth was really cute. is that wierd? but i thought it was really cute how he like, moved his lips wen he talked. idk. but anyway, He has a pretty amazing smile. his face is drawn out completley perfectly, his jaw, his eyes, his mouth :D..and no. i didnt talk to him. I was waaaayyyyy to scared, and usully im pretty outgoing. Ive really never seen a more perfect looking person in my life,so i was scared, its like going up to god and just startin a conversation with him. Im going to TRY, to work up the nerve to say somethin to him, but i might studder, and thats really embaressing. And i just watched him walk amazingly through the hall talking to someone, all the girls were stalking him with thier eyes,like all of them, they were wispering, as if all ready makin a plan to talk to him. Im usually never competive over a guy, usually il just let my friend talk to the guy instead of me, i felt it didnt matter much, but he was just to different to pass up, "omg...did u see him?" my friend daisy said. "yeah.." i said still staring at him, barely paying attention to wat she said. " im definitly going to try to talk to him tomorow." daisy said in a whisper. "cool go for it." I tried to sound as thrilled as i could. wen i really, felt sick. and idk y, but i started getting jelous.

"PARTYPARTYPARTY lets all get wasted"

and thats exactly wat i did. my stupid principal decided i could stay in school and wat not, but aparently, im on probation. i was pretty relieved :). So, i decided to just, basically get drunk at the party, because i felt i needed it. only thing i remember was walking into a wall..lol. Now my head hurts really bad D:, either from walkin into a wall or two, or im just hungover, im not sure. prolly a mix of both. I heard the party was really fun!!! to bad i dont remember barely anything D:..wat happend? lol.

The adventures of DC and the rabie infested sidekick!

I was playing with spunky in the living room, since everyone else is having a splendid time in school,.. being suspended is supposed to be great, you kno, missin school, not havin to deal with ur arch nemesses, being free of brain washed adults who think they own u for six hours, and of course, no work. but in my case...me and spunky were uber bored. So me and my mentally deranged puppy decided to go find steven and soda, whom i knew wer working at these hours. I botherd them for a while, and helped um out with stuff, but then they started boring me,because the station started getting busy, so me and spunky desidedd to lone it somewere else. I went to this store, it had some pretty cool stuff in it. "hey ur not aloud to bring dogs in here!" the manager said. i just rolled my eyes and said, "you know, hard asses like u go kno were in life :D." He just put me in a jolly mood. it wasnt like i was gna let spunnky run around the store and bight people,( but if cherry valence was in thier, thier might hav been some type of exception.) So me and the spunky went to the movies, it was so stupid, about love and the stupid girl who falls in love with some boy on the football team. Love is something humans made up to keep thier boyfriends and girlfriends from dating other people. all u saw in the seats were old wrinkly people who smelt like prunes, and oat meal,making out. EWW? except a few greasers i knew, i guess they skipped. so, i sat by them. We were all bein loud an obnoxious, so the manager came over. so i had to hide spunky in my shirt! it was horrible. He bit me like 2934082734 times. Hes fiesty that one. it was dark in the theatre so i guess he hadnt noticed the scrambling, growling dog underneath my shirt. I was gettin bored so me and the kids i was with got some straws and blew the rapers at the back o peoples heads. We started throwing other things such as popcorn and candy.Well, after we all got kicked out for throwing things at old people, me and spunk wer lonein it again. i didnt mind all that much though..I was gettin bored in thier anyway. So im just strollin around for a while, not sure of the time, and to my surprise, here come some socs. yay. The girls started tryin to cuss at me and tried to belittle me. so. wat did i do? i let spunky get a hold of um. they were screaming and ran down the street. i was laughin so hard. "good boy :D." i told him. Hes the perfect dog :D. Hes cute and scary at the same time, hes got a pretty epic bark, hes fiesty, and best of all, he hates socs! wat more could u want in a dog? So i decided that those socs bitches would hav never had the balls to skip school, so it had to b time wen everyone comes home. I decided to go see if brooke was home, so me and the spunk went bak to the apartment. No one was home yet.But i got a phone call. i answered the phone. "hello?" i sed. "we got a problem." it was my best friend taylor."watsup kid?" i asked. "Cherry ratted u out to the the whale (principal) bout wat u said and what u was gna do to her, u might b gettin expelled." i hung up. i didnt know what to say to him. i felt frustrated, mad, upset, angry, nervous, scared, and like i was about to ball. but i dont cry so that was never gana happen. wat was i gna tell johnny? I hope my principal will here me out. But shes been trying to kick me outa that damn school since i started freshman year...I never thought of gettin kicked outa school, i mean i get introuble, but not in that much trouble.i picked up spunky and i just layed on my bed. i dont drink unless im feelin pretty lousy,so for the firt time in a long time, i just wanted to get drunk.