"PARTYPARTYPARTY lets all get wasted"

and thats exactly wat i did. my stupid principal decided i could stay in school and wat not, but aparently, im on probation. i was pretty relieved :). So, i decided to just, basically get drunk at the party, because i felt i needed it. only thing i remember was walking into a wall..lol. Now my head hurts really bad D:, either from walkin into a wall or two, or im just hungover, im not sure. prolly a mix of both. I heard the party was really fun!!! to bad i dont remember barely anything D:..wat happend? lol.

The adventures of DC and the rabie infested sidekick!

I was playing with spunky in the living room, since everyone else is having a splendid time in school,.. being suspended is supposed to be great, you kno, missin school, not havin to deal with ur arch nemesses, being free of brain washed adults who think they own u for six hours, and of course, no work. but in my case...me and spunky were uber bored. So me and my mentally deranged puppy decided to go find steven and soda, whom i knew wer working at these hours. I botherd them for a while, and helped um out with stuff, but then they started boring me,because the station started getting busy, so me and spunky desidedd to lone it somewere else. I went to this store, it had some pretty cool stuff in it. "hey ur not aloud to bring dogs in here!" the manager said. i just rolled my eyes and said, "you know, hard asses like u go kno were in life :D." He just put me in a jolly mood. it wasnt like i was gna let spunnky run around the store and bight people,( but if cherry valence was in thier, thier might hav been some type of exception.) So me and the spunky went to the movies, it was so stupid, about love and the stupid girl who falls in love with some boy on the football team. Love is something humans made up to keep thier boyfriends and girlfriends from dating other people. all u saw in the seats were old wrinkly people who smelt like prunes, and oat meal,making out. EWW? except a few greasers i knew, i guess they skipped. so, i sat by them. We were all bein loud an obnoxious, so the manager came over. so i had to hide spunky in my shirt! it was horrible. He bit me like 2934082734 times. Hes fiesty that one. it was dark in the theatre so i guess he hadnt noticed the scrambling, growling dog underneath my shirt. I was gettin bored so me and the kids i was with got some straws and blew the rapers at the back o peoples heads. We started throwing other things such as popcorn and candy.Well, after we all got kicked out for throwing things at old people, me and spunk wer lonein it again. i didnt mind all that much though..I was gettin bored in thier anyway. So im just strollin around for a while, not sure of the time, and to my surprise, here come some socs. yay. The girls started tryin to cuss at me and tried to belittle me. so. wat did i do? i let spunky get a hold of um. they were screaming and ran down the street. i was laughin so hard. "good boy :D." i told him. Hes the perfect dog :D. Hes cute and scary at the same time, hes got a pretty epic bark, hes fiesty, and best of all, he hates socs! wat more could u want in a dog? So i decided that those socs bitches would hav never had the balls to skip school, so it had to b time wen everyone comes home. I decided to go see if brooke was home, so me and the spunk went bak to the apartment. No one was home yet.But i got a phone call. i answered the phone. "hello?" i sed. "we got a problem." it was my best friend taylor."watsup kid?" i asked. "Cherry ratted u out to the the whale (principal) bout wat u said and what u was gna do to her, u might b gettin expelled." i hung up. i didnt know what to say to him. i felt frustrated, mad, upset, angry, nervous, scared, and like i was about to ball. but i dont cry so that was never gana happen. wat was i gna tell johnny? I hope my principal will here me out. But shes been trying to kick me outa that damn school since i started freshman year...I never thought of gettin kicked outa school, i mean i get introuble, but not in that much trouble.i picked up spunky and i just layed on my bed. i dont drink unless im feelin pretty lousy,so for the firt time in a long time, i just wanted to get drunk.

Maybe i just gotta listen sometimes..

i jumped right to screaming and yelling at cherry. and i didnt get to here wat she had to say. but she just knows exactly how to piss me off. maybe i wont hit her. violence isnt realy that great of a sollution. it never ends anything..but if she messes with me or my family anymore..there aint gna b any exceptions next time..sorry cherry.I should hav listend instead of just seeing who could make who feel lousier..its just thhat, wen i lived with mom and dad, thats all we ever did, was scream and yell, and all that happend was i got hit in the mouth for bein a smart ass. maybe i should just shutup, and listenn before getting angry. maybe i do need anger managment like cherry said. idk. i just think that she shouldnt hav just talked to me and brook like that out of the blue, wen were just mindin our own buissness. im just tired of bein yelled at, thats all.

is there a death penalty in oklahoma?

IM GANA KILL CHERRY VALANCE. SHES A CRAZY BITCH!!! SHES TRYING TO START SHIT AND IM NOT GANA LET HER SLUTTY ASS! so, how will i prevent this u may ask? thiers a simple solution, im gana jump her bitch :D. she makes me so mad basically callin me and brooke trash, tellin me if it doesnt work with her and pony, shes gna go to my brother. FUCK NO HER SLUTY KNOCKED UP PROSTITUTE ASS WONT!. il kill her before that happens..well punch her atleast... that HIV infected hoe is out of her crazy mind. Johnny would never like her. ever..

Nothing gold can stay...

...I think it was spring.I was in my back yard.It was perfect weather,The sun was brighter and warmer then ever,not a cloud insight.the flowers were all diffrent shades of colors,reds,blues,purples,pinks,every color imaginable. the peddles were still wet from the rain the day before. I think i was 7. We were running around yelling and smiling,laughing.Johnny and brook were thier. So was my father.I think we were playing some type of childish hide and go seek game. My dad would chase us around,pretending like he couldnt catch us. he was chasing me and picked me up off the ground and swung me around while he held me. "you cant run now!". He smiled.I laughed. He had a nice smile.I squirmed down from his embrace. "Now you have to tag me!" He said. he would slow down. and let me catch him."got you Daddy!" we both laughed. "yeah i guess you did kiddo...".. he kissed me on the forehead.. We walked back to the back porch to drink the sweet lemonade mom had made us all."whats your favorite flower dawn?" He asked as we stared at the rows of flowers in moms colorful garden. The way he asked, he sounded as if nothhing was more important, then asking me What my favorite flower was. "The blue one!" i said, so excited to answer his simple question."Thats a blue violet hun."I like the red rose alot." he said." yeah. I do to daddy." Of course I only said that because I just wanted to like the same flower as he liked."But your my favorite flower ." he said with such happiness as he started tickling me. I laughed and yelled. "ok kids, inside, dinners on the table." He sounded so disapointed that we had to stop playing together. brooklyn, johnny and dad went inside. I went by the garden and looked at the flowers. The red rose truly was beautiful. I reached down and picked the rose,and put it in the pocket on my sun dress. the sun began to set, so I ran to the door.(i was thinking of this the other day.)..But now, it seems so unreal. That he was actually like that. I almost feel like I made it all up in my head, his smile,his laugh,him actually caring about us,everything good. its odd how people could change,so much. Hes not even close to the same person.And he never will be again,after beating us,screaming at us,kicking us out, making us run away...and now,everything good that he was, is gone. I cant help thinking about it. Its one of the few good memories i still have left of him. when i was young was the only time i felt safe in that house. when i wasnt scared at getting yelled at or hit. When i could talk to mom or dad without getting screamed at. when i was a kid, wen i was a really young kid, was the only time i felt i had a real home.When I would come inside with a scraped knee and Dad would tell me Its gana b ok...ur gana b ok. When they cared were i was, and what i was doing. Now all that he was, that they were, is just a faint,faiding memory...

Shes real sweet two-bit :).

Since everyone left for carson, Ive taking care of Elly. Shes doing real fine, Taking her meds and all the rest. We've been having a good time.Me and her have been talking all day bout school,family,friends. bout everything. Im getting to know her real well.Shes so nice :). I think we'll be good friends :).(Elly fell asleep, so I decided to post). So anyway. Hows carson holdin up guys?

Just another average school day...

so i walked into class, still half asleep.My teacher turned aaround from the chalkboard and said, "dawn! late again?" this is going to start effecting your grades!" ahh....music to my ears at 6:30 in the mornining. I was only half listening."sorry..um. here i have a pass.." she looked at it carefully,crumpled it and threw it into the trash. i started walking to my seat. "and Dawn?"she said with warning in her voice, "did you study for todays test?"uhmmmm....yeah. of course..i turned around and cursed under my breathe.of course i didnt study. ive already got a c- in this damn class. i didnt need ANOTHER bad grade from not studying again. after flunking the test,i walked into the hallways.I was walking with some friends, when all of a sudden, i trip over this kids roller backpack.(who the hell uses roller backpacks in highschool?) anyway,of course the books go flying hitting people in the face and all the rest.i picked them up and my friends helped. I didnt want them to though. It made them look just as stupid as i did. Again. late to the next class..what else is new? I got myself lunch detention. But i like lunch detention, all the cool kids are in thier for me to talk to :).Back in the hall ways, this time, watching the floor looking for any signs of rollerbackpacks...when i bump right into this really good looking kid. after i slam right into him, i said "omg, im reeeaaally sorry.." He flashed his perfect white teeth right at me. "Dont worry about it." He said still smiling."But..whats so interesting about the floor?" he asked. i wasn't thinking and said."oh,i was just looking out for roller backpacks." yeah. That made me sound real cool. " alright?..well see you around." He said half laughing at my stupid answer. I smiled and waved and wanted to start balling thats how embaressed i was. He must have thought i was on my way to special ed. class. anyways. i keep walkin to my next class and this socs girl perposly slams right into me. so. I did what any other greaser girl would do. I spit on her ;). Not knowing my principal was standing right behind me. great. He gave me the death stare and yelled "Dawn! apolagize now! and your suspended tomorrow!" i rolled my eyes, thats the last thing i wanted to do was apoligize for something she started. But i swallowed my pride, and gave her a sarcastic im sorry and smiled. She was still yelling "ew get it out get it out!" as her friends took a tissue trying to wipe my spit out of her hair :D. I walked to my last class and sat next to my friend in the back. We were having our own quite conversation in the back of the room minding our own buissness, talking about some party we were going to. My teacher looked up from the book she was reading to us and said,"Dawn? come up here and share your conversation with the class." ..Weell. i just bout had enough bullshit for the day. I stood up. walked to the teacher. looked her right in the face and said."Oh. we were just talking about how much weight uve gained." i smiled feeling like i let out my anger. She gasped, and looked at her stomach". Before she had time to yell at me,I took the hall pass. "ill be in the office." i said smiling. Everyone was giggling. I walked to the office with a smile on my face. Even though im suspended for a now, 2 days. That was still the highlight of my spectacular day :D.

Yoo ;).

hello all :).I dont exactly kno wat to write about yet, but dont worry! il start posting :). pretty soonish.