WTF! DAWNS BLONDE?!

lmao..idk wat to post bout..uw! i got somethin. Um evie. wen are we gana go on our rode trip?! Cuz i reallyy wana go D:. lets see...uhhh...nothin is really goin on. sept i died myy hair blonde :D. woohoo. and oh. someone hav a party D:<. i wana get wasted :(.

Magic Mushroom.

...No pony, im not dead. No Johnny, i am not addicted to drugs. No steve, evie was completley fine. And so am I. i just keep seeing wierd things in the corner of my eye, and once and a while colors mush together and things start goin in slow motion. but they told me thats normal for about to weeks after you do it. other wise,im fine. Evie got to my house real late, i was in a terrible, cranky, depressed, self deprecating, dejecected, misserable mood. For a lot of reasons. but thats not what this post is about. Any way, Evie came in,and i got off the computer. Angela shepard wanted to come with us so why not let her? "you ready dawn?" Evie said excitedly. "Your stayin' sober kid, i promised steven, member?" i said raising an eye brow (a trick i picked up from two bitch :D). "huuuuuh...fine. but i am not carrying ur fried asses home." Evie told us rolling her eyes. " Hey dawn, i know some people who are goin' to the party tonight, theyll have what we want." angela said. "good." i said. I never did drugs before. but thiers a first for everything. i just wanted to try it. see if it really does help you forget everything like everyone says. We left my house around 10 and angela brought us to the house were the party was. The house was alone on some road, it looked like it was out in the country someweres. We walked in and thier had to be a good 60/70 people.The house was so cool, it was colorful and inviting, it looked alomost like a play house. thier was colorful lights, paintings, and the walls were bright pink, nothing matched, everything was a different color. maybe a third of everyone looked like hippies. and i knew that hippies = drugs. I already saw some people on the couch doin' coke, but i wasnt interested in that. People wered drinking, laughing, dancing, singing, jumping off couches,dirty dancing, and smoking stuff, but im not sure what, they would just sit on the floor and pass it around in a circle. We followed angela and she gave hugs to a bunch a people and introduced me and evie. I loved meeting new people. Angela had alota friends. After our little "meet and greet", me angel and evie started dancing. I loved the music they had on. It was crazy and wierd, and just made u wanna dance. I was thirsty, so i went and got us drinks. I came back. and i couldnt find them in the huge mob of people. It was so excrusiatingly loud in thier, its not like they could hear me. i tried yelling for them. but i got no response. i got the memo that im just gna have to look around for them. I looked and looked and they were no were to be found. i started getting worried for them, and for me being alone. I found evie sitting at a table with a few other girls just talking. I sat by her. "wered angel go?" i said worried. "i have no idea, she went off with some guy." evie said half screaming over the music."shit, i hope we can find her by the ennd of the night, i dont need her brothers mad at me." i said. i was most worried because i knew angel was either really drunk,high, or horny. Or maybe all of the above. Me and Evie got up to look for her and she was no were in sight. We went outside to look, she was thier with a bunch of kids. she ran over to me. "dawnie!!!!!!!!, how arez uu sweaty?!." she said drunker then u could imagine. then she started mumbling something but i couldnt understand her. I knew i had to stay with her at this point. Her and these hippy lookinn kids our age started walkin down the road. " were are u going angela?!" i said prettyy pissed off. "Im jusssst gna goo try some magicall mushrooooom dawwwnnn.." She said lagging on every word that came out of her mouth. i knew i had to go with her. i couldnt leave her. and its not like i didnt want to experiment with it. So me and evie decided to follow them down the dark, silent, nothingness,and maybe at one point, something that wasnt woods and dirt road would appear.after walking and half freezing to death, we made it to this old looking house. It was wierd, it looked like it was an old abbandend hippie house, but then again, i saw people walking in and out of it from a distance. The people were full blown hippies, with the peace necklesses and bell pants, and the long hair wavy down thier backs( yes,even the guys.) I reached for the door handle but the one kid we were with grabbed my hand, as if to stop me from touchinng it. i gave him one of those wtf looks. He let go of my hand and knocked on the door. A man opend it, he looked older, with hippie clothes, and long grey hair pulled bak in a pony tail, it was hard to tell the rest of what he looked like though, the door was open so slightly. The kid who was with us whispered something to the man. The man nodded slightly and let us in. I guess thiers a password to get in, incase its an intrudur, or the fuzz of course. We went in. It was like i was alice in drug land. thier was about 25 people in thier. ALL HIPPIES. A few sat in circles passing around weed, or watever they were smoking, i could be completley wrong. Some were poppin pills while laying on the floor. some were just talking. some were even laughing to themselves, but most were stoned, or meditating. Thier was no music playing, everyone was at peace. The house was colorful like the last one. with old beat up furniture, and faded colorful walls. Thier was so much tye dye i thought i was gna throw up. It was a pretty big house, thier was an upstairs. It had some people up thier, who also were fried on some type of drug. But most were down stairs in the big room with the beat up couches and dusty rug. I saw this in a movie once, It wasnt a party or nothin,all these hippies just lived here, hippies would just leave and come as they pleased, without paying. All this place was,was a place to do drugs, meditate, a place to crash, and hippies. "come here flower children." the man said to us in a raspy, hippie voice. We followed him into the big room, thier was a few different round rugs in the room. we took the one that wasnt occupied by other hippies. "sit down children." The hippie said. We sat down. I was starting to get a little freeked out by this place. but i didnt say nothin. "here, take this." he said to me first.I felt a wave of nervouses shoot up my body."ummm...what do i do with it?.." i said nervously. "haha. wat ever you think you should do man, just go with the flow." the hippie guy said. I thought to myself. this is shroom. shroom is mushroom. and mushrooms can be eatin...I hesitated. "itl b fine man! Its a fun trip.it gets u to were u wana be...Zen." He said ever so hippie like. "zen?" i asked. " means peace man." He said. "oh." i said feeling stupid, but hes a hippie, i aint the stupid one. So i stopped bein a baby. and i put it in my mouth, and chewed it. Then it started. The room. it was slowly mushing together, things, colors, were colliding. I could here the hippie say something to me. but i had no idea wat it was. It sounded like a collision of words, just like the things i was seeing. I started seeing these colors, i had no idea wat they were called. they were just a huge collage of colors. I started getting nautious, and sopposedly, according to evie i started flipping out a little bit, and breaking into a sweat. I started seeing colorful flowers blooming in mid air, but they all kept changing colors and i was gettinng completley confused. I saw birds flying in the air, and then they faded into nothing and it looked like the hippies face was bleeding uncontrolably, that scared me. Then i felt like i was laying down.The ceiling looked like it was pulsing and the way the light hit the shadow creases in the ceiling, it made it looks like it was moving. Then all of a sudden i saw kermit the frog. Dancing, and kind of wiggling, and spazzing out, he came closer to me. I started dying laughing, and then i saw cats skipping in a circle with each other, they were also changing colors. It was so funny. but then it changed again. I started babbling about happy stuff, and how i loved everyone, and myself. I started singing about how i loved life. and then the world started changing again, i was flying, everything around me was the sky and clouds, the clouds were changing colors, and thenn they turned black. I was laughing so hard. I came bak down to earth and was in the room again. I saw everyone in the room. Two of the boys were tripping really bad. but i was ok now. I was just really blured out. "are you bak? how was it man?" the hippie said. I didt say anything for a minute...i just looked around and made sure i was bak in the real world. colors were still a little mushed. but i was definitly bak. "that was crazy. but in a good way." i said smiling. i was taking deep slow breathes. Evie looked worried. " you ok dawn?.." she said with a confused look on her face. "yeah im good, now i am." i said lookin around the room, still slightly hilusinating. We stayed for mabye another half hour when me angel and evie decided to walk home. The hippie told us "peace" and we replied it bak. he told us to come bak any time. but i dont kno if i will. I was tired, and a little spooked. They asked me wat i saw and i told them the hole thing. they thought it was pretty funny. we finally got to evies place and just stayed thier for the night. I woke up in the morning wondering if it was all a wild dream.... and thier right, i did forget everything for one night..

growing up can take a day off for a change

I was in the worst class of my day. (math) when i saw somethin i hadnt seen in a long time. Snow. it was falling slowly and feathery, in large white clusters, lightly peppering the ground and the the dark bare trees outside the school window. i started just day dreaming, looking at it as it stuck to the window, rapidly melting. it looked so soft, and peaceful. it was so simple but yet so beautiful.as i stared out the window, and rememberd all the wonderful things snow gave me. snowball fights,snow angels,building snow men,sleding, and playing fort with the boys :). I relized im growing up way to fast, learning and seeing things i shouldnt have. im only 15.im still a kid.i decided after school, i was going to play in the snow. I got home.I put on my big jacket and my gloves, and my snow pants, and my hat, and my boots. I went to the lot and just sat in the snow and smiled, and looked up. the snow was slowly falling on my face, and i almost started laughing, but then i relized i was by myself so that would be wierd lol. The snow was still falling slowly and peacefully. It looked like white cotton balls falling in slow mo. i looked at each little white cotton ball that fell out of the gray cloudy sky. I got up and made a little ball and started rolling it in the snow. it got bigger and bigger, and then i rolled three other fairly large balls and made a snowman. after i was done, i noticed the snow had stopped falling..i started feeling sad, i knew i had to get back to growing up. and the fun was over. i just stood thier looking at my snow man. I slowly took my hat off, and put it on him. and walked back to my house as slowly as i could.

all fun and games.......right?...

angelica's party was crazy. since most of you were discustingly wasted, and Dawn decided that she wanted to remember the party this time :). So i got ready, straightend my hair, put on makeup, etc. Brook was upset, so she didnt want to go. i kept asking her to just come and have fun, but she was lookin' like she was about to cry, and i knew why. So i stopped and decided to just let her be.I was gna stay with her, but what could i have done? so i left. i walked kinda fast to kits house.( who knows wat kinda creepers are out at these hours :D lol.) and she was ready as soon as i got to the door. kitty told me everyone was at angelicas already. so we went ourselves. We got to jelly filled's house and thier was freekin' a million people in thier! not just our gang, like everybody! the music was so loud, people were making out,dancing,yelling, laughing,talking,guys were bringin thier girls upstairs (ew) and most of all, everyone was drinking, i just thought to myself, this is gna b one wild ass party. Jellys house is pretty big, so she could fit alotsa people in thier. I saw Car and steven and evie,so i went over to hang out with them. me, evie, car, and kit decided to strand steven by himself, and go dance, it was so fun! the music was so loud, mostly techno shit. Well, even though i sed i wasnt gna drink, these kids were playin beer pong, so i played, cuz im pretty beastly at that game anyway,carson,kitty, and evie played to. They got pretty drunk, but i was just kinda tipsy. later on, Angelica walked in with Cam, laughing and flirting, and i knew that thier date must have went well :). they started dancing, and about an hour later, basically EVERYONE was wasted.(except soda, katie, blair, and jamie)Then this kid siting in the living room in a circle of like 25 people shouted "hey girls wana come play spin the bottle!?" i just looked around, and was gna say no, but everyone that i was with was wasted!, and they wanted to play!.so..i dodged threw everyone else dancing and sat down nervously, like 25 people were playing, girls and guys, (including johnny, pony, jelly,steven,jamie,Evie,kitty, cam, and dal). this wasnt gna b good...i was so close to just dragging all my drunk friends outa thier, but i decided to be a dumb ass, and kinda not notice at the time, that almost all of them are dating someone. It was this kids turn first, he span the bottle, and my heart dropped. It didnt land on any of us, thank god. they did thier thing, and this girl span next. It landed RIGHT on kit. i was gna die. she wouldnt do that..but she was drunk...and she did. all the guys started looking and smiling, and sayin nnasty stuff, so i socked one of the guys right in the face, and he shut his trap. Some girl landed on me to, and i just sed, not in this life time! and the next girl span, and it landed right on steven. i was gna smak him if he kissed her, his gf was right thier! but hhe did, and she was to drunk to notice. i looked at him in discust, even though he was drunk wen he did it.Jamie wasnt drunk, but she played anyway...she span the bottle, and it landed on..tim shepard. He had noooo problems with it. and they kissed,i was gna kill her for kissing him. everything was starting to get a little crazy. it was a few turns later johnny span, i was just hoping none of these girls had herpies. but, to my surprise, it landed on a wasted Jelly. They didnt seem like they had any problems with it, so they leaned in and kissed for a good 15 seconds. Cam was ok enough to relize that,n he got up and left. i felt really bad. So i went after him. He was just sitting on the front porch not saying anything. i went up to him and tried to convince him she would NEVER hav done that if she was sober. he seemed to lighten up a little and look less tense, and just sed he needed to cool off, and he walked somewere. i went back inside.Dally was making out with some skank. and as soon as i went over thier to yell at him, i see evie spin the bottle, and it landed on pony, and they kissed. steven was just as drunk as everyone else, so he didnt even notice.thats enough i thought. before this goes anywere else i pulled all of them away from that game. it was begining to get to be to much. I bet alot more went on while i was outside trying to get through cam's thick head that she will regret it in the morning. But i dont wana no wat else went on. So i decided to just, go to sleep in angelicas moms room...sorry angelica lol. i woke up the next day, and no one rememberd or noticed anything. and i just pretended i didnt either..anyone remember anything else that i didnt see?...

One of a kind :).

I was veryyyy excited to get to school today! (yea, thatl never happen again.)
becauuuuuuuuuusee, an amazing person named kitkat knows a guy, and asked him to change up Tony's schedule a little, so we'd have some classes together! (yay). So, i made sure i looked extra cute. I did all the morning fun, rolled out of bed,fed spunky, yelled at brooke to get out of the shower( but seriously, she takes like 45 minute showers), got breakfast, and ran out the door. I walked into first period and saw him and ALL his glory standing thier talking to ms. Jayson about something. i smiled a little and sat down....and then i rememberd. During the weekend, i had a project i had to do and we had to present it, we had to make a song about the divisibily rules. i felt like i was going to pass out. The first day he gets to see me, im going to be singing about math,great first impression hu? . So i just sat thier, nervously, thinking of sometype of way to get out of this, but thier was no escape. i had to sing infront of him. " Dawn Cade your up." ms. Jayson said smiling. everyone started clapping and cheering my name like a bunch of idiots. I was dumb founded, i seriously didnt want to do this. but i had to. i was shaking and started to read/sing off my sheet,i thought i was gna throw up as i was saying the embarassing song, everyone was giggling, of course i had to be the one to break the ice for everyone else. It felt like forever,but i finished my stupid song about dividing. "very good Dawn! im proud of u!" my teacher said, i handed her the paper, and i wanted to start crying, but i sucked everything up as usual, and sat down and watched everyone else go. By the time class was over,i was so completly mordified, that i zoned out and didnt even here the bell ring. "dawn, come here for a second?" my teacher said after everyone left the class room, except Tony. -_- yay. "i understand you and tony hav similar schedules?, i want you to help him out, show him were to go." she turned to tony," shes not our best student, but hopefully she payed attenntion enough to show u were u have to go." she said quietly, trying to keep me from hearing. I started walking to the door, and didnt look at him, partly because i was embarrased, and partly because he makes me nervous as hell."Hey, thanks for that inventive rendition of divisibility rules, What other talents should I be leery of?" he said smerking at me, as we walked to class. I was super pissed off and embarrased." well atleast it wasnt as bad as Trudy's, singing will not be in her future." i said not smiling or anything. He laughed a little, flashing his perfect teeth."hey,I’m not saying you weren’t any good. I would just keep your day job." He said smiling, i couldnt help but smile back, he was to cute."and what, ur an amazing singer urself?, wat hidden talents should I be aware of?" i said smiling, kind of staring at his perfect face. "well, thats for me to know, and you to find out." he said smiling. he kind of was looking at me up and down, sizing me up and stuff. after he was done, he smiled a little. "what, are you asking me on a date or someting?" i said half joking. "no, but it looks like you asked me out on one." he smiled. i loved when he smiled. "sorry, i can be a little forward at times :)." i said. " well, i will call you later and let you know when you can take me out.:)." he said still smiling. I looked at him. and smiled. he smiled back. its not like we were going on a date, date, just as friends, but hopefully it turn into something more :). we continued talking throughout the day, about really cool, random stuff. I felt like the more i got to know him, the better looking he got. on top of looking amazing, he had a perfect personality, he was kind of perfect :). but anyway, does anyone wana come along with us, double dating is sooooo much less akward. id reeeaaallyyy apreciate it XD.

Tony Liam Triston parker. Yum ;).

So after school today, i decided to go with some of my girlfriends to the drive in :D. It was really fun, we ran into alota people we knew and we all fooled around alot. The movie we watched was great, had alot of kongfu and killing. i picked it of course. Jackie chan kicked some serious ass ;). It was around 8:00 wen the movie ended.but we all decided to stay and walk around, maybe find some alchohol. But then thier he was again. that beautiful, beautiful boy. i almost wanted to scream,and cry, i got so rediculously happy and excited. but it wouldnt make me look to cool if i had. "look thiers that really hot kid again." my friends were saying, wispering,and giggling. i wasnt paying attention to them, i was in my own little world staring at him, watching him talk to these cool kids i knew. With the way he looks he deserves to b part of the cool crowd. He was laughing and so were they. They were by one of thier cars sitting on it and talking. My friends were all in this little circle telling secrets about him. while i was outside of thier little possy, staring at him. He didnt look though, thank god, because i would look exactly like all those other girls staring at him, and i didnt want to b like them. but i couldnt help it, he was mezmorizing. Some girl came over to him and the other boys, she was pretty, about 5ft 6, long black hair down her bak, and dark brown eyes, tan skin, annd straight bangs. she was cute, but u could tell she was a greaser. they were all talkin to her and stuff, then she started walking over to us. Some of my friends new her. so they started talking to her. I went over to them and joined thier little chat, of course i did because i wanted to know if she was dating him, she was pretty i wouldnt b surprised."you know him?" my friends asked her surprised. "well i should, i mean he is my brother." she sed with a smirk."uww! wats his name!" my friend said overly excited...."Tony." (Wondering how i happen to kno his full name?, my friend told me, she has class with him. the teacher has a tendency to say thier full name wen thier new lol.)

Wtf, How do you look like that?

yay. its february :D. that means its almost march, and that means its almost spring!!!! spring is when im most peppy :D. ok, im completley going off topic here. ok so. I go to school this morning, ur average suckish monday. I go to my classes, go to lunch. percrastinate in the halls, etc. Well the next bell finally decided to ring and i get out of that hell hole of a class room. and the hallways are flouded with people, going to thier classes, and such. When i see this kid. He musta been new cuz ive never seen him before, trust me, i would hav rememberd him. Lemme just break it down for you, He was like 6ft, dark brown hair it was greased back and some pieces fell over his face,so obviously he was a greaser (yay!),He was wearing the normal clothes, flannel shirt, converse, jeans, and this wierd chain with some symbol on it. he had baby, ice blue eyes, that were sorda addicting to stare at. he was very muscular :). again, yay. his teeth, were straight, white and perfect, ya know, the kind u see on the orbit comercials? he was tan, i was confused, because usually people who are pretty tan have darker eyes, but he didnt, and they stood out. His eyes though were just oddly hypnotizing, ive never really seen nything like it, they were completly and udderly beautiful. His mouth was really cute. is that wierd? but i thought it was really cute how he like, moved his lips wen he talked. idk. but anyway, He has a pretty amazing smile. his face is drawn out completley perfectly, his jaw, his eyes, his mouth :D..and no. i didnt talk to him. I was waaaayyyyy to scared, and usully im pretty outgoing. Ive really never seen a more perfect looking person in my life,so i was scared, its like going up to god and just startin a conversation with him. Im going to TRY, to work up the nerve to say somethin to him, but i might studder, and thats really embaressing. And i just watched him walk amazingly through the hall talking to someone, all the girls were stalking him with thier eyes,like all of them, they were wispering, as if all ready makin a plan to talk to him. Im usually never competive over a guy, usually il just let my friend talk to the guy instead of me, i felt it didnt matter much, but he was just to different to pass up, "omg...did u see him?" my friend daisy said. "yeah.." i said still staring at him, barely paying attention to wat she said. " im definitly going to try to talk to him tomorow." daisy said in a whisper. "cool go for it." I tried to sound as thrilled as i could. wen i really, felt sick. and idk y, but i started getting jelous.